Steady

Family is Love...

2011-12-29T20:47:00.002+08:00

need I say more?!?

Happy Holidays everyone!

What Matters Most

2011-12-09T00:02:00.004+08:00

I just want to share this song..

What Matters Most
by Kenny Rankin

It's not how long we held each other's hand
What matters is how well we loved each other
It's not how far we travelled on our way
Of what we found to say
It's not the spring you see, but all the shades of green

It's not how long I held you in my arms
What matters is how sweet the years together
It's not how many summertimes we had to give to fall
The early morning smiles we tearfully recall
What matters most is that we loved at all.

It's not how many summertimes we had to give to fall
The early morning smiles we tearfully recall
What matters most is that we loved at all.

What matters most is that we loved at all.

---
I heard this song again 2 weeks ago when I went on a retreat. Yes, I admit I cried when I heard it back then but then, it's now making me smile.

I love you...
and I will always will.

:)

Thank you!

2011-12-01T21:15:00.003+08:00

I haven't said this often but I thank you for always being there...
For being with me through thick or thin..
For guiding me to what is right and what is not.

I thank you for giving me life...
For showing me love...
For showing me the right thing to do at the right time.

I thank you for giving me this beautiful day...
For family and friends...
For showing me the right path.

I thank you from the bottom of my heart...
For without you, I am nothing.
For without you, I will not be able to surpass these trials.

Thank you & I love you... :)

Believe

2011-11-22T08:31:00.002+08:00

I believe in miracles.

I believe in the goodness of each and everyone of us.

Even when there's this dark shadow, luring over someone.. there's always still a light shining at the end.

I believe in people changing... to what is good and what is right...
to what is just and what is fair for everyone concerned.

It may not be this time that's the right time, but sometime soon, it will happen.

You just got to believe.

:)

Leo the Late Bloomer

2011-11-22T00:36:00.002+08:00

Leo the Late Bloomer is a book that Celo took home today. While waiting for his turn in the barbershop, we read this together to pass the time.

This is a book by Robert Kraus, José Aruego (Illustrator)

Leo couldn't do anything right.
He couldn't read.
He couldn't write.
He couldn't draw.
He was a sloppy eater.
And he never said a word.

"What's the matter with Leo?" asked Leo's father.
"Nothing." said Leo's mother.
"Leo is just a late bloomer."
"Better late than never," thought Leo's father.

Every day Leo's father watched him for signs of blooming.
And every night Leo's father watched him for signs of blooming.

"Are you sure Leo's a bloomer?"asked Leo's father.
"Patience." said Leo's mother.
"A watched bloomer doesn't bloom."

So Leo's father watched television instead of Leo.

The snows came.
Leo's father wasn't watching.
But Leo still wasn't blooming.

The trees budded.
Leo's father wasn't watching.
But Leo still wasn't blooming.

Then one day, in his own good time, Leo bloomed!
He could read!
He could draw!
He ate neatly!
He also spoke.
And it wasn't just a word.
It was a whole sentence.
And that sentence was...

"I made it!"

:)

Chuck's I'm Sorry

2011-11-18T16:32:00.002+08:00

Here's an excerpt from Gossip Girl's Season 5, Episode 6: I am Number 9 that made me cry.

I love you Chuck Bass!

An Angel Here on Earth

2011-10-20T09:22:00.004+08:00

I wrote this post way back in August 1, 2011. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to finish it and publish it...

I met her way back in college.

She was one of my classmates in my majoring classes of Communication Arts in DLSU.

We were from different groups or social circles. Totally different. Must be because we were not from the same block.

Nevertheless, she has this certain image of being a "party girl". Yes, that's what me & my friends used to call her in our group as that's the exact image that exudes from her.

She's petite, pretty and thin. If looks could kill, you would really think she goes to party everyday after school as she almost always goes to school with her hair done, make-up and all.

Not sure if it was true, but I heard somewhere that she wakes up super early to get this all done before classes.. and yeah, I am the complete opposite as I go to school still have my hair wet from the quick shower I did to prevent being late. LOL.

But yeah, I admit. I'm one of those people who judged her from her looks. Little did I know, that whatever you see on the outside doesn't really reflect how good she is on the inside.

And yeah, I just realized how it was really a loss for not knowing her then.

Flash forward to 10 years later...

Who would have known that a social network like Facebook, would let me know the real her?

It was really quite ironic for somebody who was thin back in college watching a reality show on tv about weight loss. Well, this show got me talking to her and we were cheering for this certain Filipino obese-chef contestant (now all muscular and thin, LOL). This I believed, was the start of the friendship.

I understand we still may not be that close, but I learned a lot from this mere acquaintance back in college. I realized that she's one tough woman... and I learned how to be strong despite of all the challenges I've encountered and have a strong faith in God.

Maj, thank you for all the support you have provided.
You don't know how much it meant to me.

That is why I consider you as one of my angels here on earth.

I wish you well in everything.. especially your health. I still may not understand God's plan in why I have to undergo all of this, but it sure made me stronger.

I woke up this morning and saw a Facebook post from her account. Her brother Jyle announced that she passed away and provided information as to where the wake will be held.

To say that I was shocked, is an understatement! I'm completely, utterly devastated with the news! I've been crying my heart out since 7am... yes, I am crying.

I'm crying because I lost a good friend. A friend that I only knew through a social network. A friend who reached out to me in deepest, darkest hour and offered comfort to me to look at the bright things in life. A friend who prayed for my healing.

And now she's gone...

I wasn't even able to publish that post I wrote way back in August for her to know how grateful I was for her help. :(

Maj, I may never get to know you more now but nevertheless, I'm deeply grateful for the friendship. I'm lucky to say that at one point in my life, I have gotten to know you and you have touched my life.

Again, thank you for reaching out to me. As I've said before, you're an angel here on earth... but now you're a real angel.

Rest in peace, Maj Guanzon. You will truly be missed.

4 Things I'm Grateful that I Accomplished Today - 10/19/2011

2011-10-19T22:17:00.001+08:00

1. Applied for an internship as a Video VA. Got a big chance of getting in.
2. Watched my weekly dose of Gossip Girl & Dexter.
3. Successfully moved the root directory of my Wordpress site to a different directory.
4. Helping Celo with his Math homework.

Dear Ex

2011-08-09T08:44:00.005+08:00

I got inspired by this trending topic in Twitter yesterday. Who would have known that the first thing that will greet me Facebook will be a message from an ex?

Dear Ex,

In all honesty, I'd like us to be friends.

However, if being friends with you will cause issues with your current girlfriend who stole you from me, I'd rather not be friends with you.

For one, I have ultimate respect on relationships.

So, really, even if it would be nice to get even for once, I'd rather not do it.

Despite of whatever past we had, we may have some similarities in our life. We both have a son and we're both not married.

Well, these are the only facts I know. I didn't keep tabs on you anymore.

In all honesty, I am all for friendship. Remember, I even took the initiative to add you up. Nevertheless, you didn't confirm my invite. But rather, you sent me a message using a different account telling me that you can't add me because you're current flame/mother of your kid will get jealous.

Well, my dear, I don't want to burst your bubble. As much as I would like to be friends with you again and know how you're doing in your state of affairs right now, I'd rather not do it.

I have no intentions on becoming friends with benefits with you nor hide in the shadows of whatever account you have.

And really, even if I just got out of a painful relationship, I will NOT for the life of me need a man for the sake of having one.

Or to get revenge to the other person who caused me harm.

I am not desperate. (like other women are..)

Or say that we really loved each other before.. that I will fight for you whatever it takes.. (even if I will step on people's toes.. hell, I'm single.. and you're not married, I don't care even if you live together)

Even if I'm 30 and I have an almost 5 year old son, I don't feel I need another man to complete me.

I'm fabulous as I am. Because really, I don't feel expired.

I can live my life without a man.

So let's just keep it this way. I'd rather be at peace.. with myself, with my son and with the world.

And truth is, even if I loved you way back when, I'll be truly happy for you even more if you give the same value and respect to your own little family.

So please dear ex, kindly understand that by doing this, I'm saving a family.. married or not with the mother of your kid, know your responsibilities, own up to it and become a good father and good "husband".

Sincerely,

Aries Woman - Aries Female, Aries Girl Personality Traits, Characteristics Profile of Aries Women

2011-07-20T21:50:00.000+08:00

Guess what? That's me...

Aries Woman - Aries Female, Aries Girl Personality Traits, Characteristics Profile of Aries Women

and yeah, I'm proud to be an Aries Woman!

Coming Clean and the Pa-awa Effect

2011-07-06T08:58:00.003+08:00

Oh, the previous post was never about coming clean nor become a kawawa. That was never my intention. My ultimate intention was provide proof. You were asking for proof, remember? SO, I posted one.

I'm not a saint. I've accepted all the past mistakes I have done in my past so never, ever say na nagmamalinis ako at nagpapaawa.

And oh, this is not my scandal. Hindi naman ako yung kabit eh or kumabit. Now kung galit ka at sinend ko sa anak mo at sa buong angkan mo yung link, baket nag-isip ka ba sa mga ginagawa mo at feeling mo hindi nadamay ang anak ko sa mga pinaggagawa niyo?

Ikaw ang huwag magmalinis... feeling mo santo ka? feeling mo uber linis mo? eh sino ba ang nangangati at nag-aaya? quesehodang may naaapakan kang pamilya? mamulat ka nga.. Baka ikaw ang nagpapaawa. sus.. 'tsura nito.

At hindi ako gumagawa ng lusot sa mga actions ko. It's but normal for anybody in my position to feel this way.

Natatawa na lang ako at ramdam ko na uber praning mo pag naglalakad ka sa labas ng opisina mo. Takot mo lang at baka biglang may sumampal at manubunot sayo. Hindi ko na gagawin yun. Kase nagawa ko na. Pero sa totoo lang dear, ang daming nagpiprisinta na sila ang gumawa nun sayo kahit hindi ako.

Laking takot mo lang talaga sa buhay mo... at ang totoo, neng? Hindi siya seryoso sayo. Pampalipas-oras ka lang niya. Kaya super good luck sayo!

Eto ang isa sa mga proof na hinahanap mo...

2011-07-01T19:11:00.001+08:00

O dahil mapilit ka kaninang umaga na wala akong pruweba.. pwes ito na ang isa sa mga hinihingi mo...

marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 3:19:57 AM): hi
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 3:20:35 AM): hi..
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 3:20:53 AM): galing kang gym?
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 3:21:30 AM): hmm... do you still mean it when you said about forgetting about what happened yesterday?
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 3:22:35 AM): hee ur online or phone lang?
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 3:23:08 AM): ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 3:20:54 AM): galing kang gym? --> yup ako lang mag isa sa gym bwahahaha
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 3:23:41 AM): do you want me to mean it? I was just inis. But if you want me to mean it. Sabhin mo lang pagiisipan ko..
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 3:25:48 AM): i can chat now. Im using my phone and im online.
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 3:27:42 AM): wag tayong magaaway please..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 3:28:19 AM): huh!? nag aaway tayo?relax ndi tayo nag aaway
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 3:32:00 AM): so bakit mo tinatanong if i did mean it?
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 3:34:04 AM): yooohoooo....
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 3:34:07 AM): its one of those thing i hate about you... Masyado matalas and strong yung pagkasabi mo... it hurt (a little)....
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 3:37:08 AM): im sorry, you came in too insensitive kasi.. Parang ano ba ako? pero sige ill just accept the fact you can talk about anything you want, tapos pag ako telling happy stories sasabihin mo stop
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 3:37:56 AM): tutal tumagal naman tayo ng ganun ang setup before, i can live with that. Mwah.
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 3:38:38 AM): ngayon pa lang ako kumain mula lastnight eat natin, i just slept. Now im eating manggang hilaw too..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 3:40:21 AM): manggang hilaw??? buntis? bilis naman? haha
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 3:43:24 AM): so, are we good?
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 3:45:04 AM): i dont think im buntis... Ako lang naman natuwa. Unfortunately im not nakakalibog.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 3:45:48 AM): hee..nakakatawa ka naman... I was thinking to ask you the same question... But it seems we are good...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 3:48:16 AM): wow libog what a word... believe me its not about that...
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 3:48:29 AM): ok we re good. Same setup.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 3:49:34 AM): hmm naingit ako sa kinakain mo... I'll just grab something to eat brb...
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 3:49:48 AM): yeah you explained naman kanina. Hindi nga lang bumenta sa akin yung reason mo.. Yaan mo papayat na ako..
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 4:15:11 AM): balikan mo ako pag nakakain ka na. Im just watching cnn..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:11:16 AM): hmm your watching the arab girl that was raped sa cnn?
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:13:10 AM): nope, im watching hbo na...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:13:36 AM): ricel dela paz: yeah you explained naman kanina. Hindi nga lang bumenta sa akin yung reason mo.. Yaan mo papayat na ako.. ---> if you really wanna know... try askin me on some other time... lol
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:17:33 AM): i kinda miss you. Kelan ka kaya pwedeng ma kidnap? Just thinking outloud..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:18:23 AM): i thought u'll never ask.. lets see...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:18:29 AM):
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:19:00 AM): bakit someother time pa kita tatanungin, bakit di mo nalang sagutin?
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:20:21 AM): honestly, I don't know pa... asap maybe? LOL
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:22:26 AM): not that!
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:23:20 AM): if you really wanna know... try askin me on some other time... lol -- this!
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:26:34 AM): what time are you sleeping? Iniwan mo na naman ako sa ere ah...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:27:46 AM): hahaha magiging magulo pagusapan sa chat... ndi pa nga natin napag uusapan eh... may mis understanding na agad... lets talk about it personally...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:28:17 AM): i'll be sleeping in a bit
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:29:42 AM): mamaya mo na ako tulugaaaaan..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:30:29 AM): okay...
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:31:00 AM): whooshoo.. Wala ka lang din marason na maayos.. Lol.
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:33:03 AM): ill leave here ng around 615. Maglalaba ako dito mamaya e..
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:36:42 AM): mukhang natulog na ata.. Sige..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:36:46 AM): ricel dela paz: whooshoo.. Wala ka lang din marason na maayos.. Lol. -> Okay ayaw mo talaga mag patalo noh? okay fine... I am still emotionally disturbed about the our past...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:40:04 AM): to add on it... medyo limited yung time natin sa haus mo... I can still go on pa sana but... We will need extra 2 or 3 hrs more
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:40:59 AM): so you had to tell a lie, na iba ang lust sa love.. Pero yan naman pala reason.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:41:26 AM): i was only planning to stay lang sana until 9 am...
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:42:24 AM): uhm.. We can always talk. You know i love talking.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:43:01 AM): ricel dela paz: so you had to tell a lie, na iba ang lust sa love.. Pero yan naman pala reason. --> well.. if ndi kita love, I just go ahead a fuck you from the time we entered your haus? siguro I'll come yun in 15 mins? LOL parang nag masterbate lang...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:45:00 AM): argh... may araw na pala...
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:45:40 AM): not that dear. I know you love me. But.. Sige wag na lang sa chat pagusapan. Iikot lang e.. Maraming next time.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:46:33 AM): Ha! I told you so!its a very long... and sensitive topic... not ideal for chat...
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:47:24 AM): 15 more minutes, ill let you sleep.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:47:45 AM): ZZZzzzzzzzzzzz
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:47:46 AM): joke
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:52:06 AM): i miss us nung dati.. Oh well.....
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:53:40 AM): hmm
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:53:49 AM): dont mind me..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:54:04 AM): I not sure how to reply with that... hmm... sorry? its not like before?
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:54:18 AM): or sorry? kasi ndi ko mababalik yung dati?
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:54:33 AM): or sorry... ndi kita love nong una?
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:54:39 AM): lol
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 5:57:18 AM): OT lang... you should really change your profile picture
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:58:53 AM): bakit sorry? I never asked for any apologies naman..
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 5:59:43 AM): kasi ang taba ko sa pic?? Hehe
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:00:18 AM): actually parang ang pangit mo dyan... kaya palitan mo
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:00:19 AM): lol
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:00:40 AM): sorry? its not like before? -- before kasi i can keep you with me ng ilang days.
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:01:44 AM): sorry? kasi ndi ko mababalik yung dati? -- we can do something different now. I just said na miss ko lang yung dati.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:02:42 AM): I just said na miss ko lang yung dati. ---> well the I read it kasi... there is something lacking...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:03:14 AM): *the way I read it... I mean
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:04:05 AM): sorry... ndi kita love nong una? -- thats fine, i never felt loved naman for a long time when we were together. Im sanay with that. Youre not expressive before. And besides you dont believe nga sa ganun, so i didnt expect rin. Come what may mode
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:04:58 AM): paano naman kasi ako magiging expressive? eh wala naman ako exexpress
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:05:40 AM): yaan mo lang panget pic ko jan.. I have a new pic. But i look young coz im wearing full makeup. So okay na yan..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:06:04 AM): yuck
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:06:48 AM): the make up doesn't fit u at all
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:07:12 AM): as i have said you dont belive in love nga so wala ka rin eexpress. you never did naman din. Ngayon kasi, nakaka panibago kasi may emotions na involved na.
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:08:32 AM): i think im not wearing make up sa pic na yan. Yung sa isa ko dapat na ipapalit kasi nagmukha akong 3years younger. Lol. Wag na.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:09:00 AM): yaan na naman tayo sa I don't believe in love story ko... walang kataposan... its just a bullshit story that I made nong time na nag bibitter bitteran ako nong college...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:09:45 AM): Please I am begging... change pic profile...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:10:21 AM): na iirita ako sa pic mo dyan... i have hide it pa talaga yung profile pic mo sa YM and sa ST when we are chatting
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:10:22 AM): lol
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:10:34 AM): anyways, you said kasi na you love me i love you you love her.. Ang dami ng love.. So nakaka loka lang. Di ko mas alam san ako pupwesto. Kaya nakakamiss yung dati. It was easy, simple. No emotions involved masyado, ang alam ko lang mahal kita, and i dont even have to say it.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:12:15 AM): hayy kaya ayaw ko pag usapan ang love
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:12:16 AM): LOL
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:12:19 AM): sige later ill change it. Naka phone lang ako..at naka hilata sa sala..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:12:31 AM): yey!
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:12:51 AM): manood pa ako justin bibi later
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:12:53 AM): argh
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:13:24 AM): sa megamall lang yata mayroon later... in 3D pa...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:13:30 AM): sus...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:13:56 AM): sa dami dami ng movie na mapapanood ko ng first time in 3D...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:14:00 AM): justin bibi pa
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:14:02 AM): lol
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:14:12 AM): sige na you can sleep.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:14:26 AM): so ngayon tinataboy mo na ako?
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:16:13 AM): i promised 15mins kasi. Baka isumbat mo sa akin. And akala ko pinaparinggan mo na ako na you have lakad pa later.
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:16:47 AM): so no, di kita tinataboy, ikaw nga nagtataboy sa akin. Sabi mo magpaligaw na lang ako sa iba..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:16:53 AM): i didn't know you where so sensitive
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:17:16 AM): ndi bagay
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:18:47 AM): the art of deception.. Lol.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:19:11 AM): i don't remember you being sensitive like now...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:19:37 AM): art of deception amputs... so niloloko mo lang pala ako e
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:20:09 AM): im sensitive. I can remember statements na tumatak talaga and na tinamaan ako. Hehe. Kunwari lang di ako affected. Pero pag sobra na, ayun lumalabas rin hehe
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:20:59 AM): so tumatak pala sa iyo yung I don't believe in love bullshit ko?
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:20:59 AM): lol
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:21:23 AM): gago! Di kita niloloko. I use it lang to look strong and have that i-can-do-this-attitudesarili ko niloloko ko.. Tongek
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:22:13 AM): ako pa tuloy na gago?
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:22:16 AM): tongek pa
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:22:16 AM): lol
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:22:28 AM): so tumatak pala sa iyo yung I don t believe in love bullshit ko? -- huh? San galing yan?!
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:22:36 AM):
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:24:27 AM): i should start counting... every time mo ako minumura...
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:24:43 AM): parang nakakarami ka na ha...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:25:18 AM): nakakarami saan?
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:25:26 AM): di naman murra yun...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:25:45 AM): lol
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:26:13 AM): fine i'll start counting tommorrow
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:26:18 AM): nakakarami ka na sa accusations mo..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:26:46 AM): hmm seriously, Do you remember na mumura kita?
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:26:58 AM): regardess I mean it or pabiro lang
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:29:17 AM): yes. Simple -- p.i naman dang.. You did once or twice then ill shut up.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:29:54 AM): hmm...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:30:11 AM): does that include when we are making out?
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:30:35 AM): i mean pag nangyayari yun i just shut up. Anyways, i effing miss you.. Ayan mura yan. Count 1
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:30:53 AM): bukas pa ako mag bibilang
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:31:33 AM): o yun pa madalas mo akong namumura when making out and doing it.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:32:14 AM): lol
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:32:50 AM): you should swear me alot when we are doing it..
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:33:43 AM): uhmmm im a bit shy and conservative kasi when doing it.. (ninja)
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:34:07 AM): unless, naka alcohol ako.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:34:52 AM): uhmmm im a bit shy and conservative kasi when doing it.. (ninja)----> bwahhaa... parang gusto kita bigla murahin ng pabiro.. like "ULOL!"
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:35:26 AM): its just amazing na naalala mo pa yung last sex natin.. Ni hindi ko na nga matandaan yun.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:35:43 AM): what last sex?
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:36:16 AM): hirap talaga ng selective memory lost
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:36:17 AM): arghhhh
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:36:46 AM): oo ngamaniwala ka. Hindi naman ako wild sa bed a.. Well i know im not.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:38:57 AM): ndi ka ba wild? hmm...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:39:42 AM): will do something about that soon...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:39:58 AM): actually now ko lang na realize yun...
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:40:12 AM): uhm no.. Well not that im a dead doll on bed, but im not wild or rough. Not even hot nga..
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:40:55 AM): narealize na?
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:41:16 AM): na ndi ka wild sa bed...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:41:51 AM): but may mga iilan momments ka nag bigla ka magiging hot/wild pero parang supressed
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:42:18 AM): not sure pa nga kung supressed / todo na yun? hmm...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:42:57 AM): hmm...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:43:07 AM): dami tuloy things in my head... grrrr....
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:43:17 AM): please don't asked me the details
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:43:47 AM): i mean not now... ask me pag magkasama tayo
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:43:48 AM): lol
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:43:53 AM): bigyan mo akong alak. At least may rason ako para di mahiya afterwards.. Hehe..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:44:30 AM): we'll try that too...
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:44:53 AM): hmm.. As if naman we can talk about it pag magkasama tayo.. Pero OT sloppy ka pa rin mag kiss..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:45:49 AM): sige ndi na kita kikiss
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:46:38 AM): kasi pwede naman magpaturo di ba..
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:47:01 AM): or ayaw mo lang ako kiss
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:47:32 AM): as if naman may nag turo sa akin...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:47:49 AM): pang porn lang alam ko kiss
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:48:09 AM): uhm, turuan kita.. Lol.
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:49:04 AM): oo nga ang porn material kasi ng kiss mo, hindi pang foreplay e.. Pang naka 3rd round na..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:49:13 AM): hmm...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:49:43 AM): sige turuan mo ako... pero turuan din kita maging wild sa bed
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 6:49:45 AM): lol
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 6:57:34 AM): nakatulog n kausap ko..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:03:29 AM): hee
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:03:46 AM): hinihintay ko kaya reply mo...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:04:15 AM): eh ang tagal mo mag reply... bumili na ako ng yosi and tumingin ng ulam sa kalenderya
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 7:06:39 AM): kalenderya? Ano yun calendaryo sa karinderya? Lol
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 7:07:27 AM): gusto ko ng yosi.. Tsk.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:07:45 AM): pasensya i always not good in tagalog spelling...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:08:00 AM): bili na
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:08:23 AM): pero mag break fast ka muna para isang yosihan nalang
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 7:09:56 AM): kanina pa ako kumain, chopsuey, fried chicken, manggang hilaw and koko crunch.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:10:21 AM): mag yosi ka na nga
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:10:23 AM): hahha
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 7:10:42 AM): wow ang taas na pala ng araw. Makauwi na nga, ligo then balik here para maglaba..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:10:57 AM): uu nga mag laba ka na!
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:11:17 AM): baka magalit mga suki mo sa labada mo
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 7:11:17 AM): bye. See you tomorrow. I miss you pa hug ako bukas ha.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:11:31 AM): wow monday na pala bukas?
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:11:54 AM): bilis ng araw...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:12:24 AM): anyway... hug lang?
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 7:12:30 AM): yes monday na bukas. Tapos sa thursday leave na ako! Yey!
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:12:48 AM): haa...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:12:57 AM): mag leleave din ako at mainingit ka rin
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 7:13:17 AM): bakit wiling ka ba sa long sweet tender kiss? Hindi di ba? Sabi mo di mo na ako kikiss di ba? Noted.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:13:38 AM): i was not thinking about the kiss
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 7:14:06 AM): pero pag nagleave ka sa bahay at bundok ka lang naman.. Di naman ako maiinggit nun. Bleh
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:14:19 AM): I was thinking about the bj like you did yesterday
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:14:21 AM): hmm...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:14:46 AM): that was one wild bj you just did...
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 7:14:47 AM): you want to have sex on monday aftershift? Whoa!
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:15:25 AM): pwede rin
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 7:16:03 AM): ok sige lets see.. That got me excited. And please cum.. Nakaka insulto e..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:16:55 AM): so... na insulto ka pala... LOL we will talk about it soon..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:17:06 AM): sya sya... mag laba ka na
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 7:17:37 AM): i will.. Kaso hinihila ako ng kama... Lol.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:17:47 AM): sleep then
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 7:18:00 AM): pero sige bye bye.. Ill see you tomorrow.
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:18:05 AM): sure...
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:18:07 AM): bye
ricel dela paz (4/10/2011 7:18:16 AM): and hope to catch you later..
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:18:34 AM): I'll try late afternoon or evening
marteo_cosme (4/10/2011 7:19:05 AM): --- offline --- Bookmark

Davao Friends

2011-06-13T11:08:00.001+08:00

I'm blessed with lots of friends who love me dearly.

Who would have thought that I'll find wonderful people on the Internet?

Yes, my world has evolved online... from meeting that special someone, to having cool workmates to having a good set of friends online who I consider my sisters too.

These 3 people are one of the reasons why I will keep on coming back to Davao...

and why I will consider Davao my 2nd home.

Thank you for always being there for me..

I will surely come back again!!!

Life Choices

2011-05-19T23:34:00.004+08:00

Life is all about making choices. Choosing between different options that await your ultimate decision. By not choosing, you have already made a decision..

This has been a long overdue realization for me. And now I want to make that choice.

I choose to be happy.
I choose to be at peace.
And I choose to be the only one.

If you're not there to make that decision, I therefore present my own.

I want to live a full life without any negativity. I choose NOT to destroy any relationships. I want to have a normal, complete family.

I choose to live my life.

I love you and will always be loving you. It's just that I need to take care of myself again... to love myself... to live.

And the best thing about this experience is I will learn to live again. :)

Paborito

2011-04-22T21:33:00.003+08:00

Ang anak kong si Marcelo ay may paboritong laruan. Siya ay si Green Bear.

Mahal na mahal niya ang berdeng oso na to.

Hindi ko alam baket pero sa lahat ng laruan, ito ang pinakamamahal niya. Kahit na magkaron siya ng iba (ang totoo sandamakmak na ang laruan dito sa bahay), pagdating ng gabi.. isa lang ang binabalik-balikan...

si Green Bear pa rin.

Nakakatuwang isipin na may mga bagay-bagay na darating sa iyong buhay na pawang mapanlinlang. Yung tipong darating pero alam mong panandaliang aliw lang. Oo, masaya ka at meron ka nito. Pero pagkatapos ay mapagsasawaan mo din at kakalimutan.

Dahil hindi lahat ng bagay na ito ay makapagbibigay sayo ng saya at lungkot . Hindi lahat ng bagay na ito ay tumabi sayo sa hirap at ginhawa. At lalung-lalo ng hindi lahat ng bagay na ito ay makakaintindi sa tunay mong pagkatao.

Kung kaya't ngayon naiintindihan ko na kung baket.

ako pala ang Green Bear ng buhay mo... :)

Magmahal ka ng tama

2011-04-18T21:25:00.006+08:00

Walang masamang magmahal. Ang totoo.. napakasarap magmahal. Pero isaayos ito.

Hindi porke't nagmamahal ka, ito ay tama. Lumugar ka. Hindi lahat ng pagmamahal ay tama kaya nga may bawal na pag-ibig.

Baket nga ba nagiging bawal?

Kung may asawa na ang iyong kalaguyo.. magtigil ka na.
Kung may girlfriend yung tao, maghunus-dili ka. Hindi mo kelangan karirin ang pag-agaw. Matakot ka sa karma teh!
Kung may asawa't anak -- lalo kang mahiya. Pampanira ka ng pamilya.

Hindi sa ako ay nagmamalinis.. pero kahit na gaano ko kamahal ang tao, pero alam kong masaya na siya sa piling ng iba, masaya na rin ako. Hindi ko ikakaila na iniisip ko siya paminsan-minsan at winiwish ko na sana ako ang babaeng yun.. pero ganoon talaga ang buhay...

Tapos na ang maliligayang araw namin. Nabigyan na kame ng tyansa upang isaayos ang relasyon namin pero hindi kame nagkatugma sa aming mithiin. May mga dahilan na Diyos lang ang nakakalaam kung baket ito nangyari. Pero nangyari na ang nangyari. Huwag ng sariwain ang nakalipas. Huwag ka ng mangalabit. Alam mo namang walang patutunguhan.

Kung kaya't kung ako sayo.. magtigil ka na.. maghunus-dili ka at matuto kang mahiya.

Maganda ka. Mabait ka naman siguro. Matalino. Maraming lalaking pwedeng umibig pa sayo. Huwag ka munang magpanic buying. Kahit iniisip mong expired ka na.. Umayos ka.

Kung para sa'yo, para sa'yo. Darating lang ang tunay at maaliwalas na pag-ibig ng hindi mo inaasahan... ng hindi ka naninira ng relasyon ng iba... ng wala kang nasasaktan.

Yung lalaking mapagmamalaki mo sa buong pamilya mo. Yung hindi ka ikinahihiya na may anak ka sa pagkadalaga. Yung tatanggapin ka ng buong-buo at tanggap ka ng pamilya niya.

Magmahal ka ng nararapat.. para bumalik din ito sayo.

Bieber Fever

2011-04-12T18:39:00.002+08:00

Okay, my 4 year old son is the fan.. not me.. well, it all changed after watching Never Say Never last Sunday.

Can't help but adore the guy. He's really one talented, young lad you'll surely love.

This is the song I've been playing over and over last night while working...

test for helen

2010-06-03T02:11:00.001+08:00

Why I'm Really Busy

2010-04-27T02:03:00.003+08:00

It's really been a while since I last blogged here. I've been really, really busy lately although I now work full-time at home.

There has been many twists and turns, ups and downs and the supposed plan to put up an outsourcing company with my online friends didn't materialize. We went our separate ways and focused on going freelance.

This is still one of my goals. I yearn to put up my own VA business and help other would-be virtual assistants improve their skills and get to know the wonderful world of this homebased business.

I managed to purchase a couple of VA trainings that I would need to finish and get certified on. This is really serious stuff as I would want to equip myself with the knowledge and skills I need to put up my own business. And hey, this is all came from my hard-earned money!

Anyway, hopefully I get to put up my own site really soon! I really can't wait to hit this target!

I'll hopefully blog more.. soon!

Oh one last thing... my son Celo is already attending summer pre-school! How time flies! and that is another reason for being uber busy! :P

Wanted: Virtual Assistant

2009-09-19T23:00:00.001+08:00

A startup company specializing in Social Media Services or Search Engine Optimization is in need of qualified Virtual Assistants.

Qualifications:

College Level
Own computer, with at least 512Mbps dsl connection.
Knowledge in the following SEO skills is required:
-Forum Posting
-Blog Reviews and Commenting
-Social Media Sites Management
-Article and Press Release Marketing
-Content Posting
-Web 2.0 Promotion
-Social Bookmarking
-Link Building through RSS and Directory -Submission
-Yahoo Answers
-LinkWheels

Compensation is to be discussed during interview. Salary to increase after 2 months evaluation.

If you meet the above qualifications, please send a resume with your cover letter to
recruitment@pinoyvirtualassistant.com with the subject: Virtual Assistant.

How to Sign up for Paypal

2009-07-04T17:05:00.001+08:00

Paypal is one of the best and most secure methods of payment on the internet. Shopping online has never been this fast, easy, reliable and most importantly, secure. Most people are afraid of shelling out their hard earned cash on the net but have no fear, Paypal is here!

Signing up is really easy!

1. Go to paypal.com.

2. Click on the sign up link.

3. A ‘Create your Paypal Account page’ would open up. Simply choose your country or region and choose your language to personalize your Paypal experience.

4. To personalize your Paypal experience, you’re given 3 options to choose from. All would depend on how you want to use your Paypal account. If you’re still unsure of what you want to do with Paypal, it’s always nice to choose the basic type which is for Personal use.

There are 3 different types of Paypal accounts to choose from: personal, premier or business.
Personal - for individual who shop online
Premier- for individuals who buy and sell online
Business - for merchants who use a company or group name

5. After choosing what type of Paypal account you want, the next page would ask you to fill up important Account Information. You need to input your email address (this would be used as your Paypal username), password (must be at least 8 characters), name, address and phone number.

6. Read the User Agreement and Privacy Policy. If you’re 100% sure about what you’re doing ‘Click Agree and Create Account’.

7. Once your account has been created, you now need to consider on how you want to fund your purchases. There are 2 ways of paying through Paypal: bank account or credit card.
The bank account option would link your checking or savings account with your Paypal account. You can add several bank accounts in the future but for starters, you can add one account to have your Paypal account verified.
The credit card option is always the faster way of funding your Paypal account. You can set up your account quickly and efficiently without having to expose your credit card information to merchants.

8. After having your account verified, you're now ready to use Paypal.

Happy online shopping!

Testing

2009-05-22T11:10:00.001+08:00

Testing lang to Dise.. heheheh..

title or name or whatever

Random Thoughts

2009-05-02T23:05:00.005+08:00

I've been working as a call center agent for more than 5 years already. Yup! That's 5 years baby! And this is just in one call center! Imagine that!

When some people are call center hopping, I'm contented where I am. I still remember that for 2 straight years, I'm still happy taking in calls. I may not be as happy as I was before, but I'm still taking in calls. Gone are the days I want to get promoted. Haha.. Promotion means more pay but more responsibility. I can't handle any more responsibility as it is.

It's not that I don't want more responsibility, but times have changed. CVG is not the same as before. They've been more stricter. Understandable as times have changed too. If we were the no.1 center before, wheels have turned, and we're not right now.

Anyway, for the past couple of months, I've been looking for online jobs. Since well, I'm online most of the time and I soooo love the internet. I've been hunting down jobs that could make me stay home and earn a living.

I first discovered oDesk. It's a cool website. I got a buyer though he was not oDesk verified then when he hired me. Anyway, it was quite an easy job and I want to think that he likes my work so far. But then, my keyboard got busted and I wasn't able to do stuff from him for some weeks. I got a temporary solution to use an external keyboard to do some job for him.

And then I stumbled upon Staff in Seconds. It's not a freelance job like in oDesk. It's a company that would hire you for your services. They'll be the one providing you projects. For me, it's better than oDesk because they would be giving you ample training. Times are hard.. and honestly it's really hard to land a job more so even just an interview in oDesk.

Luckily, I'm part of the first batch of our campaign. I'm not part of the pioneer batch but first batch.. Labo!

Anyway, we had our first teambuilding (the first ever for the company) last Sunday, April 26,2009. I grabbed the opportunity since it's the time to get to know my colleagues because honestly, it's all virtual. Everything is on the internet. We don't see each other physically but we use Skype to communicate. No webcam just voice. We do conference calls and it's really refreshing whenever we do our jobs and making chicka on the side while doing it. hahaha...

I'm adjusting myself to this job and I really hope it turns out fine. We have a 30-day evaluation period and 90 days before we get regularized... which means higher pay.

I'm really thinking long and hard about this endeavor. I so want to be able to handle my time, stay at home but earning as well. I'm giving myself a maximum of 10 months to stay in my current job before I retire. (naks! retire!)

But before I do, I would need to be able to save up for these things: (hehe... luho ko!)

- a brand new Macbook (hey, I would need it for my job!)
- the kitchen shelf
- the topcase keyboard for my old macbook
- ram and hd for my old macbook
- new cabinet for kuya and me

if ever things go well with me & marts... I would also need to save up for:

- a ref
- new mattress

Mygahd! Ang dami pala!

But well, that's just me. haha...

My target date for the new macbook will be by December of 2009. naks.. kaya yan.. LOL..

Also, I also want to be able to invest in a condo. I'm eyeing one condo that can be availed through pag-ibig in the Mandaluyong area. Hopefully I can do site visiting soon.

Anyway, if I do retire... I would want to work homebased and also go back to online selling. I'll be getting stuff from the US care of my parents.

In other words...

Publish Post

my retirement would go to this business venture... hahaha.. I really need to be able to work overtime because in a year's time Celo would be going to school.

Lousiest Dsl Service

2009-04-27T06:44:00.010+08:00

I've been using Globe Broadband for the past year. The connection is a-ok if it's working... BUT if it's not, it's really HELL!

Mind you, using my net nowadays is not just simply using it for the heck of it. I'm making money on the net now okay?!?

I was recently hired with Staff in Seconds as a Virtual Assistant.

I think it's a calling when I stumbled upon this job on the world wide web.

Anyways, this is my 2nd job on the net, the first one I haven't actually been working on it yet, since it's a freelance job. My point is I need the internet for my jobs!

I started working for SIS last April 21, 2009. I didn't go home right away because I met up with Marts after shift. Therefore, I worked using his laptop. heheh..

When I went home, my brother told me DSL is down.

WHAT?!?

Okay, cool it... I asked when it started and he said last he checked he used it 11am. Okay.

As you may know, I work for tech support in a dsl company in the US.. so suffice it to say, I know how to troubleshoot this kind of stuff. Our system: Mac OS 10.5, prolink modem & linksys router.

Since it doesn't connect and my modem is on bridged mode, I disabled the router and made a direct connection to my computer. Created a pppoe connection and it connected but heck! it doesn't browse. aaargh!

So I dialed 171... I really hate calling Globe's tech support coz they really don't know what they're doing. My opening spiel would be to say my name, the phone no., my location, who's account it is and how I'm related to the account holder. I tell the tech that I don't have internet right now and are there any outages. She said there's none reported okay. I continue with telling her what I've done and of course, upon knowing that I have a router, she asked to remove it. I've told her yes. Done. She asked if I see all lights on, I said yes and no and proceeded to saying my modem's bridged, just did pppoe on the pc and it got connected. Although I'm a mac user for so many years now and I support Mac for 5 yrs now... I still don't know where the hell is the command prompt in macs. haha.. so I asked. The agent who assumed what mac I have was saying to click on something which I can't find.. She put me on hold. When she came back, she said that she'll just send a tech dispatch. I really laughed. But stubborness in me said, "No, let's still try it out." I asked her if she has ran tests and she said she did and can't find any sync.. Hmmm, modem's got sync. What is she saying?!? Does she really know what she's saying? Okay fine, send a dispatch. When will the tech arrive. In 3 days. What?!? It's sop. Okay, fine.

Next day, we went to SM Centerpoint to do our grocery. I told my brother that we need to report it to the Globe business center as well to make sure that they're aware. From experience, their business center holds more power and does something if you report it to them. The lady in their front desk said that since this has been reported over the phone, she'll just email them for a follow up and give feedback to my brother through text. Maximum turnaround for this to be fixed is 5 days. Okay, fine!

So just think how hard it is for me to do an online job without internet at home. It's really a blessing that Marts has free Globe wireless broadband (unfortunately, it's still Globe.. but what the heck it's free!). So that's what happened for the next days. I think on the 23rd, my bro got a text from Joanne from the business center saying that something is scheduled to come over that day or next day. If ever nobody came, just provide feedback to her. I texted her... no reply. I asked my bro to remind her next day. No reply.

On Friday, the 24th, me and Celo went to his grandparents' home in Caloocan. I didn't bother with the internet anymore because all the while I was thinking it will be fixed. After shift, on Sunday... take note, this is the 26th already. The 5th day of my-no-internet-fr-hell. After shift, I stayed and chatted with Mae (whom I would really really miss coz she's gonna resign soon!) and Neo in GJ's; I arrived at about 10am at home and still NO INTERNET! WTF?!?

This means WAR! I called up Globe again. I planned on sleeping when I get home because I have a teambuilding to go to later in the day for SIS. But then again, I really have to get this up and running since my job would revolve around this internet thingie.

I called up and asked about the status of the ticket. The agent, although nice would be the receiver of my utter rage for their lousy service. He said that it was already checked by the techs and asked if my issue was fixed. Hello?!? Would I call if it is?!? He said that he has to transfer the call to support to get it fixed. Wait a minute... what do you mean that you'll be transferring me? I'm simply asking the feedback of the tech dispatch because that was what was promised to me right? He then said that the tech was able to check the facility on the 24th and fixed the problem. They closed the ticket on the 24th. What?!? They closed the report without going to my premise to check if my dsl is indeed working? No, this is unacceptable. (I really sound like my customers. haha...) I've waited long enough. 5 days is 5 days. I've waited patiently for their promise that a tech would be dispatched. I asked for a supervisor. As usual, they will say that the supervisor is engaged in a meeting. Okay. If that's how it is, I would wait even if it takes 3 hours.. (really, I did this with them already.. kita mo ang lousy talaga!) He put me on hold for a total of 15 minutes before I got hold of his supervisor which goes by the name of Flor Cancino I think. She assured me that a tech would go there that day or tomorrow. I said NO. The tech should come out that day before 3pm because I would really need the internet and I have no time waiting for them since I've waited patiently already for the past couple of days. She said she'll give feedback before lunch. She called me back after 5 minutes. Assuring me that a tech would arrive before 3pm. Okay. It's almost lunch now, I ate sisig and slept.

Guess what?!? I overslept. I was supposed to meet Val, my SIS teammate by 3pm and I'm still sleeping soundly by 3:30pm. Mygahd!

I got 15 missed calls, 5 texts and no technician. I called them up again and looked for the Flor. The agent said she was on break. Fine, I'll take a bath but after 15 minutes I will callback. And so I did... I was still looking for the supervisor when the tech arrived. And guess what? The tech who arrived seems to know nothing about the problem. He just arrived and told me that he was told to go there to say that there's still a problem. What?!? So why did you come if you can't fix it? AMPF tlaga! Aaargh!!!!

After 2 minutes, another tech came in... a younger guy holding a dsl box. Uy, mukhang promising.. may dalang modem. hahaha.. He then proceeded to check the connection. No connection obviously. Since he doesn't know how to use a mac. He went out and got his laptop and disconnected the old modem and used the new one. It worked! Thank God. I proceeded with checking the connection on Lappie and it worked too! But not the right speed. Okay I can live with that for now since I really hafta go.

The ending, I didn't let go of the tech support over the phone until I knew that I had a connection. haha.. They asked if there's any more problem. I reported that my landline is so hard of hearing.. hahah.. (mahina in other words..lol) They replaced it with no questions asked. My phone rang and another tech with them wants to talk to them. And so they were doing their so-called reports.. blah-blah.

Afterwhich, they called up another person who asked me a series of questions regarding the service and I really bombarded her with my lousy experience of their support.

So there you have it.. my lenghty post of their lousy internet service.

I Want

2009-04-05T22:49:00.003+08:00

I've been lemming for this new macbook ever since my old one showed signs of old age.

I thought reapplying for the loan is easy.. but it ain't.. oh well.. that's okay.

At least I would have to save up on it and hopefully by Christmas I get to have this.

Jobs are pouring in right now.. it's just up to me to be hardworking and stay hardworking so that I'll have this baby in no time.

I'm Worth 1045..aargh! hahaha

2009-03-02T04:28:00.001+08:00

You look it over the following list
and see how many of these things you
have done. BUT you have to ADD up the
money amount along the way. Then post
the amount that you are as the title
of the bulletin.
PS: the smaller the better!

1. Had sex: P30.00
2. Smoked: P100.00
3. drank alcohol: P100.00
4. Went skinny dipping: P20.00
5. Kissed someone of the opposite sex:
P90.00
6. Kissed someone of the same sex:
P10.00
7. Cheated on a test: P10.00
8. Fell asleep in class: P10.00
9. Been expelled: P10.00
10. Been in a fist fight: P40.00
11. Given oral: P60.00
12. Got oral: P60.00
13. Prank called the police: P10.00
14. Stole something: P10.00
15. Done drugs: P20.00
16.Dyed your hair: P50.00
17. Done something sexually with
someone older (like a few years):
P20.00.
18. Courted someone OVER 18 (if your
under 18): P50.00
19. Ate a whole bag of oreos: P60.00
20. Cried yourself to sleep: P10.00
21. Said you love someone but didnt
mean it: P95.00
22. Been in love: P90.00
23. Got caught doing something that
you shouldnt have been doing: P80.00
24. Went streaking: P5.00
25. Got arrested: P10.00
26. Cuddled: P95.00
27. Peed in the pool: P5.00
28. Played spin the bottle: P30.00
29. Done something you regret: P70.00

Now add up and post as "I'M WORTH P......

I added all the numbers and it totaled : 1250.. shet..

100 Truths

2009-02-28T17:01:00.003+08:00

100 Truths!

1. Last beverage → ice cold water
2. Last phone call → Marty
3. Last text message→ TL Len & Marts
4. Last song you listened to→ Elmocise..hahah..
5. Last time you cried→ yesterday, ang sakit ng tummy ko sa hyperacidity

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice → hmmm...kung date lang.. na nde naging bf... parang hindi
2. Been cheated on? → yup
3. Kissed someone & regretted it? → yes..tsktsk..
4. Lost someone special?→ lost na namatay? nope
5. Been depressed?→ yep
6. Been drunk and threw up? → haha.. lagi.. kaya nde na ako umiinom!

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. green
2. yellow
3. pink
4. blue

HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends → yes
2. Fallen out of love → yes
3. Laughed until you cried → yes
4. Met someone who changed you → yes
5. Found out who your true friends were → yes
6. Found out someone was talking about you → di ko alam
7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ haha, oo
8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life → ha?
9. How many kids do you want to have→ 3..may isa na ako..haha
10. Do you have any pets → yes.. 2 cats and a dog
11. Do you want to change your name→ pwede rin.. gusto ko Mickaela eh.
12. What did you do for your last birthday → cooked spaghetti and stayed home
13. What time did you wake up today → past 9am
14. What were you doing at midnight last night? → sleeping.. sobrang sakit ng tyan ko sa hyperacidity.. tinulog ko lang.
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → kasal..hahaha..
16. Last time you saw your father→ tagal na..:( kung sa skype, i think 2 days ago..pero yung kasama ko talaga.. i think 6-7 years ago na..
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life →
18. What are you listening to right now → sesame street song "work out in a chair"
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → oo ata.. sa work
23. What's getting on your nerves right now? → my tummy.. lecheng sakit yan..
24. Most visited web page → gmail ko

1. What's your name→ michelle
2. Nicknames→ chel, chelay, kite
3. Relationship Status: it's complicated!
4. Zodiac sign → aries
5. Male or female or transgendered → female
6. Elementary→ sja
7. Middle School → sja
8. High school → sja
10. Hair color → black
11. Long or short → long
16. Height → 5'4
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → yes
18: What do you like about yourself? → flexible..haha..
19. Piercings → ears and tongue(dati)
20. Tattoos → wala
21. Righty or lefty → righty

FIRSTS :
22. First surgery → wala pa
23. First piercing → nung baby pa ako.. other than that... dec 16, 2004 for my tongue ring
24. First best friends → celine bernabe
26. First sport you joined → volleyball
27. First pet → dog
28. First vacation → hongkong
29. First concert → tiffany..haha
30. First crush → di ko na alam name niya..basta kinder ako nun..hahaha..

RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating → wala
50. Drinking → wala
52. I'm about to → take a bath
53. Listening to → elmo singing
55. Waiting for → celo to wake up

YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? → i have one.. but i want more.. lol.. pag tagal na
59. Want to get married? → yes, kaso ewan.
60. Careers in mind? → entrepreneur, make-up artist, beader

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
68. Lips or eyes → pareho ko gusto eh
69. Hugs or kisses → pareho din.. hahaha..
70. Shorter or taller → taller
71. Older or Younger → older
72. Romantic or spontaneous → romantic
73. Nice stomach or nice arms → wala ako gusto.. hahaha..stomach siguro
74. Sensitive or loud → loud
75. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
77. Trouble maker or hesitant → hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger → yes
79. Drank hard liquor → yes
80. Lost glasses/contacts → glasses & contacts ---so many times!
81. Sex on first date → no
82. Broken someone's heart → yes
83. Had your own heart broken-> yes
85. Been arrested → nope
86. Turned someone down → yes
87. Cried when someone died →yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → sometimes
90. Miracles → yep
91. Love at first sight → yes
92. Heaven → yes
93. Santa Claus →for my baby..yes!
95. Kiss on the first date? → yes
96. Angels → yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → yes si marts
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → unfortunately, yes
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? → eto na.

***got this from a gradeschool classmate carla.. thanks!

Torn

2009-02-28T16:54:00.002+08:00

I'm an Eheads fan.

Pero hindi die-hard. haha..

I watched their last concert last August at the Fort. I half enjoyed it.. coz bitin eh! Ely had to go to the hospital because of his heart problem.. 1st set lang natapos.

Anyway, there'll be another concert this March 7.. sa MOA naman.

Truth is, I'm T-O-R-N!

I want to watch the final set again BUT..

I got work at 10pm..

hay.. I was contemplating of just being late for work. But of course, that wouldn't do well with TL.

Second, I've got a workshop to attend the next day after work. So kamusta naman ang katawan ko diba?!?

This extensive polymer clay workshop is something I wanted to learn for the longest time.

I already paid the reservation fee to secure my slot.

Third, money's tight. Although I know I could go around it and have money to buy a ticket... with Ida tempting me with a discounted 5k ticket.. heheh...

Oh well, I guess I know what I have to do right?!?

Hay...

Updates about Me

2009-02-23T07:00:00.004+08:00

It's quite some time now since I've last blogged about anything...

1. I got a job for oDesk. I'm still not technically hired 'coz my buyer is still not oDesk verified, but he already has paid me for 17 hours of work last Friday. It's on my paypal account already. Yeah! I think he's a good buyer. Knowledgeable, organized and detailed. I'm quite new to this online job but it's encouraging to know he appreciates the efforts I've done so far.

2. My head is spinning with one of his tasks. Flight & hotel hunting is one of my new tasks. I've never done a research on travelling... specifically looking for the cheapest flights and doing reservations. My only knowledge about this is Cebu Pacific's seat sale. haha.. Talk about pathetic!

3. I'm bald down there. Haha.. Officially. I headed to Lay Bare in San Juan last Thursday and it was one of the days I questioned my choices in life. Haha..

4. Im getting fatter and fatter everyday. Ugh! As if it weren't enough, not only has Marts noticed it yesterday.. but prior to that, when I asked Celo if Mama is sexy.. all he said was "Taba! Taba! Taba!"

5. I'm planning a trip on my birthday with Marts. I'm so excite about it already. I'm actually planning on making it a family trip with Celo too but my officemate Mae said that Celo would just get tired since we would just commute and all. Good point. And so, I'm planning to go somewhere else with Celo when we get back.

6. I've been thinking a lot lately that I want to go to Bora before this year ends. I'm planning of going there by September or October. Most probably after Celo's birthday. Like a post celebration or something.

7. Because of this desire to go to Boracay, I also looked for other alternative places to go to. Saw lots! How I wish I have the time and money... hehehe...

8. I've been contemplating if I would resign from my job. Reason to resign? Well, I really don't know. HAHAHA... Sometimes I want to be promoted. Sometimes I don't. Weird. I have reached 5 years already in my job.. so may makukuha na daw ako retirement. Sabi ni tl wala daw ako increase.. pero.. based dun sa provisions nila ng increase dapat meron ako.. ang labo nga eh... 3 months naman ako pumasa last year.. ang nakalagay sa final list nila 2 buwan lang.. eh para que nakakuha ako ng qpb ng 2 buwan for the 4th quarter.. LABO!

9. Gusto ko manood ng Eraserheads concert pero ewan ko. May pasok ako nung gabi na yun. Kainis lang. Bahala na si Batman!

10. May bagong workshop si Angeli! Nagpareserve na ako.. Reservation payment na lang kulang. Iniisip ko pa kung iGcash ko o ipaypal ko na lang.. I'm torn.... This workshop is for making polymer clay stuff.

The Love of my Life

2009-02-16T04:27:00.006+08:00

Because it's the season of love...

Just wanna share this pic.

It was taken last February 7, 2009 @ Pagsanjan, Laguna at one of the most unromantic places one can imagine.. the cemetery!

I'm just happy with this pic because he's the one who iniatiated that we have our pic taken.

Anyway, we'll be hitting 5 years next month. (I'm counting, he isn't. Oh well, anyway...)

He's still the love of my life. The father of my kid. Whatever good or bad that happened between us he'll always be my mahal..

Belated happy valentine's day Martsko...

oDesk

2009-02-05T07:28:00.007+08:00

I just read about oDesk a week ago from one of my former colleague's blog in multiply. It's a work-at-home job which looks promising.

I've already created my profile, took some online tests, applied to some jobs but I haven't got any interviews yet. (I started writing this draft last 2/5/09.)

Anyway, I was favorited by 1 buyer. I got an email regarding an interview today... it's actually more of a test post request to gauge my capability of being a blogger.

It's fairly easy actually. I've got a good morning sleep. I slept past 9am and I woke up after 4pm. My mind's in a whirl and I got excited about it.

I'm done writing the test post after an hour. I knew nothing about registry cleaners which is the topic of the what I need to write about. All I know is that registry is something in your computer that needs to be A-ok because the efficiency of your computer relies on it. I often say to my dsl customers that there might be something wrong with the registry of their PC if they get those dll errors. Mind you, I use a Mac that's why I'm not bothered with this registry or this registry cleaner because I don't need one.

Anyway, hopefully I get hired. My mind will work again like I'm in college or something.. heheh...

Adobong Baboy

2009-01-19T15:11:00.003+08:00

I'm not a cook...

therefore I don't really cook nor does cooking likes me.

This is one of my waterloos.. cooking.

It maybe one of the reasons why Marts is complaining... I don't cook for him... and the fact that we love eating.

Since we broke up last time, I've realized I need to learn how to cook simple dishes... not just for me, not just for him but for little Celo.

I actually have learned quite a lot for such a novice like me. I always kid around that I could throw a children's party now because I can cook spaghetti, chicken and lumpia now. My kid loves it just as much because he eats them with gusto. Mind you he's a picky eater.

He doesn't eat rice with ulam. He just eats plain rice. He loves fruits like mangoes, apple and banana. I was laughing so hard the last time he ate a banana because he knows how to open it already. Mygahd, my kid is a grown boy already!

Anyway, I know cooking Adobo is easy. Easy for you to say... haha.. because for the longest time I've been trying to cook adobo for Marts and all I get are criticisms. He says it's "kulang sa iga," tastes like pork steak... tsk.. tsk..

Yesterday, we had nothing to eat for lunch in his apartment. I was bugging him what he likes to eat for lunch. I asked if he wants to eat adobo. He said that he cooks better adobo than I do. HA!

He was sleeping when I went to the nearby palengke. I was thinking of what to cook. Porkchop or adobo? I went for the adobo. I actually searched for the recipe online and just tweaked the recipe to what I bought. It says there that I need 1 1/2kilo of pork.. I just bought a half kilo. 1/3cup of vinegar and 3 tbsp of soy sauce. I remember an old friend telling me 1:2 ratio of soy sauce and vinegar. Anyway, when I was cooking.. I simply crushed the garlic using the knife and combined all the ingredients of pork, soy sauce, vinegar and pepper plus the bay leaf. I had it boiling till the "sauce" dried up and I added little water. When I think it was ready, I got another frying pan and put some oil and fried the pork then added the little sauce that's left from the boil. I even used the leftover rice and added the remaining sauce to make adobo rice. I still cooked plain rice because I was thinking that the rice would not be enough.

After cooking, I hurried upstairs and woke him up. I was so excited! I felt that this was my best ever adobo and he would like it. Indeed, he did! I was so happy! Maybe third time's a charm! hahaha... The half kilo of pork was "simot!" From the 2 cups of plain rice I cooked, there was very little that was left of it.

With this kind of reaction from him, it really makes me eager to learn how to cook. Whoopee!

Which reminds me again, I have to complete my requirements for the San Juan Manpower thingie. There are free classes held in our city hall for its residents to help them with their livelihood. I actually want to learn how to cook not really for making it as a business but for making my family eat well..hahhaa...

Now, before I end this blog I would just like to thank this blog... for the wonderful adobo recipe.. if it weren't for your recipe, I wouldn't have cooked it any better.. hahaha...

http://pinoyfoodrecipe.blogspot.com/

2009 New Year's Resolutions

2008-12-29T06:48:00.003+08:00

So shempre, bagong taon.. bagong buhay...

I'm listing my 2009 New Year's Resolutions:

1. Be punctual. Come to work at least an hour before shift. Saves me money in the long run. I get to ride the PUJ instead of hailing a cab plus no late deductions and no memos coming from my sup.

2. Be organized. In everything... as in E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G! haha.. from my stuff, to Celo's stuff to my emails, phone and all the other chorva. hahaha..

3. Be a camwhore. I have a camera that came from my `rents. I haven't been taking a lot of pictures lately and if I do, I'm too lazy to upload it. Ha! I need to capture those wonderful Celo moments.

4. Learn to cook. I love eating but I hate cooking. But since I'm a mom now, I know that I have to learn to cook or else... Anyway, my brother always reminds me how we all love our Mom's cooking. He says that whatever food I cook, Celo will love it too. Therefore, I need to learn asap. hahaha...

5. Give my online business time. I love selling online. Money earned here is for those extra what-have-yous I want. It's still in the works though.

6. Climb again. I want to go hiking and climbing anything! hahaha.. I miss my college days with the Outdoor Club. I'm not physically fit but hopefully I get to join a group again and relive my love for the mountains.

7. Save for the future. Save for me & Celo's future. I opened Celo a bank account and I'm setting a realistic goal of putting away at least 500 per payday. Ideally, that'll be 1k per month so by the end of the year, I should have at least 12k+ on Celo's savings that I shouldn't touch. Hopefully, I'd be able to do it on my 2nd atm too for myself.

8. Pay off my debts. I wanna be debt free. Brings peace of mind too. haha...

9. Be goal-oriented. I'm really a happy-go-lucky type of person. I don't plan for the future. Obvious ba? I need to set goals for myself and for my kid. Think "The Secret!"

10. Live, laugh and love... That's it. I've just got 1 life to live. I need to smile a lot. Love myself more. Give more.

That's it! 3 more days and it's 2009!

To my mom & dad who are miles away from me.. I love you both so much. I may not express it often, and I may not be that good a daughter always.. but everything you have done for me and Marcelo is very much appreciated. I sincerely thank the Lord that you're my parents and you're always alive and well.

To my dear brother Kuya Chris, we may always quarrel a lot and I may be a pessismist and a brat at times but I thank you dearly, for you have always been there to take care of my precious lil one when I'm away at work. Sacrificing yourself, things that you could have done with your time. I hope that this coming year, you'd find a job suitable for you that you'll learn to love.

To my eldest brother Mike, for the longest time I know we don't understand each other.. I may always seem pissed at you but I know you care about me more than I'll ever know. I'm sorry for my shortcomings and for understanding you. But I hope there will come a time we'll settle our differences and be close like we were when I was still a kid.

To Marteo, I'd always love you and stick by you no matter what. I know you love me like you always do in your own little way. We may not be the ideal couple in a relationship but I like this complicated-what-have-you that we've got. Whatever happens, you'll always be the father of my kid.. and I love you dearly and would never ever regret that we have Celo.

To my wonderful baby Celo. You're big now! For a 2 yr.old kid, you've got a lot going for you! I always thank the Lord that He has given me a wonderful, smart, handsome, independent & healty baby boy. I couldn't ask for anything more.. I love you the most above all else and always remember that no matter what, Mama will always give you all the love and caring that you need. Always. Just stay sweet and rock on!

Thank you Lord for the good life you have given me. For being there whenever I'm down and for giving me challenges so I could learn to pick myself up. I have been neglecting my Christian duties for some time now but I sincerely thank you for everything, for all the blessings and for this wonderful life that you have given me.

To all my friends and foes... basically, to everyone.. thanks for taking the time to read this...hehe..

Happy 2009!

2008-12-13T20:30:00.002+08:00

Wala akong karapatan magselos...

pero nagseselos ako.

Hindi naman tayo...

pero parang tayo pero hindi.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang gagawin ko...

tumunganga? pumunta sa isang tabi, magbulag-bulagan?

Wala akong pwedeng gawin...

dahil wala naman talaga diba?

Ako'y nasasaktan...

ako'y manhid sa katotohanan.

Sana ngayong Pasko may magbago...

ito nga ba ang gusto ko?

Mahal kita...

at forever kitang mamahalin.

Sana lang mahal mo din ako...

tulad ng dati.

Busy

2008-12-13T09:55:00.002+08:00

Takte.. nabibwisit ako..

ang dami kong gustong gawin..

at ang daming ginagawa.. kainis!

at sobrang onting oras..

at 1 lang ako.. 2 kamay..

hay buhay..

AT&T White Christmas Party

2008-12-13T07:30:00.002+08:00

Grabbed photos from Jeh.. Tinamad ako dalhin yung camera ko eh.. hahaha...

Team Lycans: (clockwise from top) pia, tl len, mae, jake, ako, jeh & thea

tl, jakey, ako, jeh and thea

qsp leen, thea, jeh & me

thea, jeh & me

Me.. ang taba ko! LOL

Happy Thanksgiving!

2008-11-28T09:52:00.004+08:00

Happy Thanksgiving!

Although we don't celebrate this tradition in the Philippines, I love this holiday!

Can you guess why?

Well, if you don't I'll give you a couple of reasons why...

1. Thanksgiving is one of the holidays that Americans celebrate na bongacious talaga. It's like how we celebrate Christmas here but even better. They celebrate it with family and friends, eat Turkey and have lots of festivities lined up. It's actually a long weekend

2. Since it's a holiday, less to no calls for us which equates to less to no work but with pay. Teehee!

3. No vgh today. We used to have this voluntary-go-home aka uwi-ka-na-pero-bawas-sweldo-mo. No vgh today and that's okay with me. I get paid without actually doing anything. hehehe..

4. More time for bonding. Had a meeting earlier. At long last! All because of high avail time.

5. It may be coincidental but it's payday today! yipee!!!

There's so much to be thankful for...

I'm thankful for being alive.

I'm thankful I have a wonderful, smart and healthy son.

I'm thankful my parents are healthy, although far away, I'm more closer to them than before.

I'm thankful I have a roof over my head, even it's not that convenient.. at least I can still sleep soundly.

I'm thankful I have a job. Yup, even if I rant over and over about how tiring it is.. honestly, I still love it!

I'm thankful I have friends. Loving friends. Trustworthy friends.

I'm thankful I have a good brother.. who even with my shortcomings, loves my son very much.

I'm thankful I still have you. You're still there.

Bwisit!

2008-11-22T02:06:00.004+08:00

I'm never been this pissed off with a relative.

Well, other than with my brothers who I often quarrel with every so often.

This one takes the bait...

---

Ayaw ko sa taong pakialamera. Dahil hindi naman ako mahilig makialam sa buhay ng buhay.
Sinasabi mong nagmamalasakit ka lang sa nanay ko. Sobra naman ata yung pamamalasakit mo. Wala namang masama dun. Pero kung araw-araw o oras-oras na makikita mo ako eh yun ang binabanggit mo o tinatanong mo, nakakairita.

Alam ko malaki ang utang na loob ko sayo. Tinulungan mo ako noong panahong nangangailangan ako ng tulong. Pero nakakapagtaka naman talaga kase yung malasakit mo sa SSS pension ng nanay ko.

Atat na atat kang maasikaso yun. Ang nanay ko nga hindi ako kinukulit eh. Ipapaalala ko lang...PERA niya yun ha! At ang pagkakaalam ko kase gagastusin yun sa pagpapaayos ng bahay o pangdown kung kukuha ng condo.

Hindi naman kame nagmamadaling kunin yung pera. Dahil once nagmadali kame, pag nakuha na yun baka magastos kagad... eh may pinaglalaanan nga diba?

Oonga, wala ka kamo interes dun at nagmamagandang loob ka lang para sa amin. Sinasabi mong nagpapakahirap nanay ko sa Tate para sa amin. Naiinis ka at kung anu-ano ang pinapadala ng magulang ko para sa amin. Kinakargo pa kame. Nagkakasakit daw ang nanay ko dahil sa amin.

Nanay ko yun. Magulang ko. Kung ano man ang gusto niyang ibigay sa aming mga anak niya, wala ka na dun. Pera niya yun eh. Kung may ibigay siya, wala kang magagawa. Kung gusto niya kame i-spoil, wala kang pakialam. Kung pano niya kame palakihin, wala ka na rin dun.

Ngayon ang SSS ng nanay ko pera niya yun. Kung mayroong mga makikinabang dun, kame yun. Pamilya namin. Kung kame nga na makikinabang dun eh hindi nagmamadali kunin yun, ano bang nasa tumbong mo at kating-kati ka malakad yun?

Balak namin na kunin ito as lump sum. Gagamitin siya pandagdag sa pagpapagawa ng bahay o pagbili ng condo. Ako ay magloloan sa Pag-ibig para dito. Ang lahat ng ito ay balak namin ayusin sa susunod na taon.

Nagsumbong ako sa nanay ko. Di ko alam kung tama pero sinabi ko na rin.

---

I'm quite calm now... I just arrived home but I'll be leaving again. Will be going back to Ate Anne's place. Celo is there with his dad.

13th Month Pay

2008-11-21T04:15:00.001+08:00

Shiyeeeet...

So near... yet so far...

ang dami ko ng gustong bilhin. ang dami ng nakapila.. hanggang ngayon wala ka pa rin...

hahaha...

may bago na naman akong gustong gawin at bilhin...

magupgrade ng memory at HD sa macbook ko...

at shempre palitan ang lintsak na keyboard ko... huhuhu mukhang gusgusin na si lappie eh!

checking some stuff in Philmug... & most probably buy the keyboard replacement in Ebay..

Sana December na.. hehehe..

change template

2008-11-19T08:08:00.002+08:00

For the nth time..

madali ata ako magsawa sa background template..

hehe..

anyway, another suckmylolly design.. thanks!

for other free wonderful & fantabulous blogspot templates visit : suckmylolly

I Want

2008-11-01T07:20:00.000+08:00

This officially in:

I'm lemming for a Nintendo DS Lite.

'Tis one of the gadgets I so want to have right now. Thinking about it, makes me forgot the Nokia e61 I've been lusting over 2 weeks ago. Hehe..

Why the DS Lite you ask? Why not the PSP, ipod or the iphone?

I admit I'm not into those RPG games. I'm more into the "cutie-cutie games" I call it. hehe.. I'm not into music either, so having an ipod or an iphone really doesn't make my mouth drool.

But this one bites the dust.

This is actually of the current fads here in the office. Colleagues left and right who's into gaming and are always in the pantry playing hold this as much as possible. Lunch time, breaks and even pre or post shift, people are holding PSP to pass the time, entertain themselves or really just addicted to it playing.

As of now, still not addict. HA! It's still out of reach. Wait till I get my hands on my 13th month pay and I'd be off to Greenhills to canvass and shop till I drop for this device I oh-so-want as of the moment.

I was able to read some threads in Girltalk (my ever-fave forum) about this new toy I'm lemming for. Reading about it, I'm sold on the DS Lite already..

I can't wait to get my 13th month pay! 1 month more to go and I'll be off to Greenhills shopping.. haha.. My christmas present to myself. LOL. Donchawori, will share it with Celo.

Only problem there is my brother's violent reactions about the color I want to get. I said I want the pink one. His violent reaction: "Celo might not want to play with it coz of the girly color." Hello?!? He's just 2! hahaha.. Is it really my son or my bro who'd be conscious about playing a pink DS Lite? hahaha..

Can You?

2008-10-21T05:26:00.000+08:00

it was just a glimpse of what life could be
it's not me who would decide of it
but you..

can you?

that's what we don't know.
if maybe you're brave enough..
you would..

but can you?

leave the ego behind
leave the bachelor behind
love me and let me

can you?

Christmas Wish List

2008-10-11T06:04:00.001+08:00

It's October already...

and I would like to list down as early as now the things I want..

so, come and sing with me...

"All I want for Christmas is..."

actually are ata to.. hahahah... list kase eh! at nde 2 front teeth no.. okay pa naman mga ngipin ko..

pero heto sila...

Nokia E51 - sira na yung v3x ko. :( eh wala akong extra phone. this is the cheapest phone with wlan function. nalaman ko lang to sa kachat ko. sabi niya meron daw siya bago and 50% off daw niya binebenta. perks of the job kaya meron siya nito. eh wala pa akong ganong pera as of now eh. ang layo layo pa ng ng 13th month pay! huhuhu... mabait naman ako sir eh.. pwede bang ikaw na lang Santa ko? Gud gel naman po ako.. please? please? pretty please?!?
Brush Tool Belt - tagal ko ng gusto ko magkaron nito. kungsabagay as of the moment, mejo busy ako sa work.. hindi ko magawa tong racket na to na gustung-gusto ko.. huhuhu.. pero kahit na gusto ko pa rin magkaron para pag kelangan ko na.. ready na.. malapit na Christmas eh. so malamang pwede na akong rumaket ulit.. hahaha.. party-party.. lol..
Pillows - soft, fluffy, white pillows.. pwede madami? hahaha.. wala kameng unan ng anak ko eh! lol..
Tiffany Necklace - nag-iinarte lang ako.. matagal ko na tong gusto. kahit yung kaparehas lang pero mas okay kung yung original. hahaha...
Adidas Lasalle Jacket - preferable white. 3 na kase yung green kong jacket. over na over na ako sa green kung bibili pa ng isa diba? hehe.. gusto ko yung may hood.
DIY mineral make-up kit - matagal ko ng gusto matuto nito at gumawa. wala kase dito nabibili sa US lang. pwede na yung sa Ocean Mist.. pero kung mas may budget.. preferred ko ung sa TKB. feeling ko mas kumpleto.. everything-you-need eh!
Pasta Machine - I-oh-so-want to learn how to make accessories and whatever knick-knacks with polymer clay. My bro has a pasta machine.. but of course, that's for his pasta. I want one of my own for my clay stuff if ever I would pursue this endeavor
Polymer Clay - people say that Premo is a good brand. I haven't touched any polymer clay yet so whatever polymer clay you want to give me is fine with me!
Yaya - sana magkaron na ako ng all-around-yaya na mabait, maalaga, at mapagkakatiwalaan. this is to keep me sane on some trying times that my son is being tough or hard to handle. I love my kid. But I still need the extra help. Hindi ko pa nakukuha yung superpowers ng nanay ko na kaya gawin ang lahat eh!

thank you!

2008-10-10T07:07:00.000+08:00

uhmm.. meron ako dapat iboblog dito nung weekend. kaso hindi ko nasave yung mga pinagsusulat ko.

sayang!

pero ok lang. matatawa ka lang kase sa lukso ng aking damdamin. haha.

oh well, hindi ko na ulit nasubukan ulitin kung ano man yung dapat kong isulat, dahil tinamad ako.

nasira kase ang telepono.

hahaha..

pero etong blog kong ito ay para sayo.

ako'y iyong pinangiti.. :)

ng di mo lang alam.

ng dahil sayo, nalaman ko na espesyal pa rin pala ako. or pwede pa rin akong maging espesyal sa mata ng iba.

na may humahanga pa rin pala saken.

na pwede pa rin pala na may magkagusto saken.

kahit ako'y..

isang dalagang ina.

---

natuwa ako nung nagkita tayo. kase ang tagal-tagal nung tayo ay huling nagkita. hayskul pa yun no! at natatawa ako sa mga kwentuhan natin kase nga ang nerdy-nerdy mo pa nun eh.

hmm.. di ko alam kung gradeskul o hayskul un pero, dati nagkakausap tayo sa telepono dahil nga sa aking kaibigan.

heniwei...

maraming salamat at ikaw ay aking kaibigan.
ako'y iyong pinangiti.
abot hanggang tenga.
peksman.
salamat sa pag-intindi sa nararamdaman ko.

mahirap man aminin pero eto kase yung totoo eh..

marts pa rin.

2008-10-09T08:49:00.000+08:00

"Kung dalawa ang mahal mo,
mas piliin mo yung pangalawa
kase hindi ka naman maghahanap ng iba
kung mahal mo talaga ang una."

siguro may katotohanan itong mga katagang ito.

pero nalulungkot ako. nakakalungkot kase ang kanyang ibig sabihin.

para sa isang taksil na kagaya ko..(oo, naging taksil ako minsan sa buhay ko.. hindi ko siya pinagmamalaki pero hindi ko na siya mapagkakaila)

minsan sa buhay natin dumadating ang pagsubok. ang pagsubok na nagmamahal ka pero ang taong mahal mo ayaw sayo.

dumadating din ang pagkakataon na kayo pa pero may dumadating na iba. hindi mo maiwan ang isa dahil mahal mo naman siya pero ayaw mo na manggaling sayo na ayaw mo na. at sa isa, hindi mo rin naman mahindian. dahil nga gusto mo siya. pwedeng nahulog na ang loob mo, nainlababo ka na.

pero dumadating din ang oras na kayo pa (pwedeng hindi na rin kayo) tapos nagsisimula ka na sa panibago at eto ang punto na babalik na sayo ang mahal mo.

masakit. sa isip. sa puso. sa ulo. pati siguro sa puson.

sino ang pipiliin mo?

---

meron akong malapit na kaibigan na ganito ang kanyang sitwasyon. ayaw naman niya manggago. pero siguro ang sarili niya ang kanyang ginagago.

---

sabi ko nga kanina, minsan sa buhay ko ako'y naging taksil.

minsan pag inisip mo akala mo maganda ang pakiramdam ng taong nagtataksil. hindi kaya.

baket kamo?

magulo ang utak ng isang taksil. hindi siya makapagdesisyon kung sino ba talaga ang pipiliin niya sa mga pagpipilian.

pero nakakaramdam din siya ng saya. aba, shempre, pagkaguluhan ka ba naman diba. pag-awayan ng iba. parang ang haba-haba ng buhok mo abot hanggang sa kahabaan ng edsa.

---

ako'y nagtaksil. pero ako'y pinagtaksilan din.

naramdaman ko ang sakit at pagdurugo ng aking puso 10x over ng naramdaman ko nung ako'y nangaliwa.

hindi naman masaya ang magkaron ng iba bukod sa mahal mo eh.

pero nung ako naman ang napindeho. ang sakit. nagdugo. namanhid. ang aking puso.

ang tawag diyan ng iba karma.

nasaktan ako nung nalaman ko. kaya nung umamin sakin, masakit pero hindi na masyado.

pero sino niloko ko?

---

andito ako sa punto ng buhay ko na ako'y nagtatanong sa sarili ko kung gusto ko pa ba magmahal muli?

kaya ko pa ba higitan ang pagmamahal at pagmumukhang tanga na ginawa ko dati?

meron pa kayang magpapangiti sa akin at hindi ako paluluhain?

meron pa kayang tatanggapin ako kung sino ako?

o ako'y makuntento na lang kaya dito sa isang sulok.

maghintay.

mag-abang.

at baka sakali may magparamdam.

may bumalik.

at ako'y mahalin muli.

2008-09-28T01:23:00.000+08:00

G: I like you.
B: I can't. I have a girl.
G: So what? That's fine by me. This is not the like-love thingie.
B: But I really can't. I've been honest with you from the start, remember? I didn't lie to you whatsoever.
G: I know and I understand. And as I've said, it's fine by me.
B: I'm sorry if it seems that I'm rude sometimes.. I just don't want to send mixed signals coz again as I've said.. I have a girl.

---

Ang gulo niyo!

Minsan hindi ko alam kung kanino ako maiinis.

Pero siguro matatanda na sila. Alam na nila pinaggagawa nila.

Google.. my love

2008-09-17T08:57:00.000+08:00

hahaha...

eto lang ang masasabi ko...

best of friends kame nito.. never lets me down.. imagine that!

hmm... i likey

2008-09-09T17:05:00.000+08:00

I've been trying to look for the perfect blog skin.. well... until now I still haven't found the "one".. hehehe...

Eh pano ba naman.. green ang favorite kong color.. parang wala akong type sa mga green na nakikita ko. Ung iba naman either over or kulang sa design. Well, I'll settle for my next favorite color on the list.. pink! fink! basta yun!

Special thanks to Sharnee for this wonderful pinkish template. For more free wonderful, ooh-lala templates.. go to suckmylolly.com.. yep, you read it right...SUCK MY LOLLY! hehehe...

Pag Pinipilit, Lalong Nasisira

2008-08-23T05:43:00.000+08:00

Sa totoo lang, hindi ko naman sinasadya. Ayaw ko na ngang pumunta. So bakit pa ako pumunta? Napilitan akong pumunta dahil sa anak ko. Natural tatay niya yun. Kaarawan ng tatay niya... so kailangan pumunta. Nang-imbita ang lola eh, anong magagawa ko? Pero sa totoo ayaw ko talaga.

Hindi ko na nabili ang dapat kong bibilhin para sa kanya. Hindi na ako nag-effort kahit gustuhin ko. Hay buhay.

Sabi niya sa akin gusto niya mapag-isa.

Natagpuan ko siyang tulog nung kami'y dumating. Nung ginising ko siya tinanong ko siya... Anniversary pala ng pagkakaibigan niyo. 1 yr na pala kayong nagkakape. Bwisit ang bungad sa akin. Galit na galit at tantanan ko daw siya. Huwag daw ako makulit. Nagdabog. Nagpapalabas sa kuwarto. Nagsusumigaw na parang hari.

Sa totoo hindi ako nakikipag-away. Siguro nang-aasar lang. Eh, sa asar din ako, baket ba?
Pero ako'y napaluha. Alam kong babanggitin mo dapat ang di ko gusto marinig. Pero di ko alam ano ang nagpigil sayo para hindi sabihin ito.

Makulit ako. Deal with it. Ganon talaga ako. Ngayon kung hindi mo talaga kaya ang kulit ko... Ganon talaga ang buhay. Hahanap-hanapin mo din ang kulit ko akala mo. Dahil pag hindi na kita kinulit, wa na ako pake.

Minsan iniisip ko kung bumalik ako sa dati. Walang pakialam. Magkasama tayo sa iisang bubong, pero walang pakialamanan. Gawin ko gusto ko, nagagawa mo gusto mo. Walang sabihan kung anong trip. Ganon lang. Kaso hindi siya relasyon. Wala lang. Andun lang ako, pero parang hindi.

Napapaisip ako ngayon kung ano ang dapat kung gawin. Siguro nagpupumilit ako.. pinipilit ko ang hindi pa pwede. Naalala ko tuloy yung isa kong telepono. Pinipilit ko siyang ayusin. Hindi ko alam ano pumasok sa utak ko at pilit kong binubuklat ung casing niya.. ayan tuloy nasira!

Ganito rin kaya tayo? Habang pinipilit ayusin.. ayan lalong nasisira?!?

Payo nila hayaan kita.

Ang isip ko naman: Ayaw ko.. paano na ako?

Kasakiman ba ito? Selfishness on my part? Mukha nga akong tanga... kasakiman pa rin?

Kung praktikal ka, alam mo na ang dapat mong gagawin.. pero hindi. HINDI KA PRACTIKAL.

Ako? Martyr daw ang tawag sa akin. Binabaril sa Luneta. hahaha.. Kelan kaya ako matatauhan?

Lintek na pag-ibig yan. Lalong pinipilit, lalong nasisira. Leche!

Meron akong sikreto

2008-08-14T13:54:00.000+08:00

Meron akong sikreto... hahaha... kase nga sikreto hindi ko pa pwede ibunyag. Pero sa sobrang tuwa ko gusto ko siya iblog! hahaha.. Anyway, I've been thinking what to give this special someone as a perfect gift for his birthday. So ngayon may idea na ako kung ano ibibigay ko. I'm sure ikakatuwa niya ito pag nabigay ko na sa special day niya. Fingers crossed. LOL.. Tinawagan ko na ang kelangan tawagan at nagpareserve na ako ng kelangan ireserve.. soooooo.. hintay-hintay na lang ng araw na yon. At oongapala... aprub ang pto ko sa araw na yun! Yey! Kahit sira ang agent portal ko na nagloloko at nagsasabi na cancelled daw siya, may go-signal na kay TL na aprub siya. Yun nga lang... sa kagustuhan kong makasama siya..alam mo naman yun, magulo utak.. talo pa babae sa kaartehan.. pero mahal ko siya eh.. anong gagawin ko?!? Basta-basta.. kahit hindi ko siya makasama buong araw, nais ko lang ibigay sa kanya tong regalo nato na tiyak eh pagkakaguluhan niya at itatanong kung saang lupalop sa pinas ko nakuha at pag nalaman niya paniguradong ipagmamayabang sa mga kaopisina niya.. pero ang tanging hangad ko lang.. pls lang.. wag na wag siya sanang bibili dito at magbibigay lang dun sa hinayupak na malanding babaeng un..hahaha.. nde ako bitter.. asar lang talaga. pano ba naman ang niluto kong sikretong pasta na nasarapan siya at nalaman kung ano yun..ipagluto ba naman dun..leche! anyway.. tama na negatibo.. masaya ako kung ano meron kame.. talaga! may anak kame na napakabait at napakatalino at napakacute..hahaha.. nanay talaga ako...hangad ko lang sana maayos talaga kame.

General 6 Card Spread - 8/13/2008

2008-08-13T02:28:00.000+08:00

	how you feel about yourself now (Temperance) You feel a need for harmony and balance in your life and indeed are starting to feel that some peace has already been restored. If you have been through some tough times, such as a break up of a relationship or financial problems, peace will be restored. However if you are still experiencing problems, this is a time for calm, careful control and patience and you will soon have a sense of normality again.
	what you most want at this moment (The Hierophant) The cards suggest chel, that what you most want at this time is to have someone around you that you can trust and confide in, knowing that they won’t let you down. There are moral issues here, knowing right from wrong, and you may feel that you need some advice or wise counsel from a teacher, priest, parent or someone you have a lot of respect for, in order to help you make the right decision.
	your fears (The Emperor) You are feeling that success is just around the corner but it feels elusive, just out of reach. You are concerned that the support and help that you want from your father, husband/partner or a man of significance in your life won’t materialise. Trust and ask for the help you need, and success will be yours.
	what is going for you (Justice) There is a karmic power to the Justice card, reward for the good deeds you have done in the past. This is a period of good luck even if you don’t know why you are being so favoured. You will approach any issues concerning relationships or business affairs with calm, balanced logic and any claim will go in your favour.
	what is going against you (Strength) Your negativity and lack of self control are your real enemies. If you are finding certain addictions in your life are taking a hold, be it smoking or drinking for example, look inward for you hearts true strength and self-belief. Change your attitude and be positive and you will reap great rewards.
	outcome (The Sun) The Sun is shining on you - it's your time for success, joy and happiness. You will feel confident and full of vitality. It's a time to celebrate with friends and loved ones, perhaps enjoy a well-earned holiday, a time of pleasure and good news around children or the conception or birth of a longed-for baby. If you are not feeling this way take heart, you will enter this period soon.

Aries - The Player

2008-08-05T02:49:00.000+08:00

Just for fun... grabbed this post for Orchid.. hahaha...

Me:
ARIES - THE PLAYER (3/21-4/19) Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in bed...(hahaha)Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

My Lover:
LEO - THE SEX MANIAC (7/23-8/22) Very talkative. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, Fun and SEXY. Have own unique appeal. Irresistible. Most caring person you'll ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with...they will kick your ***... u might end up crying...

My Kid:
VIRGO - THE BEST SEXUAL PARTNER (8/23-9/22) Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. EXTREMELY SEXY. Predict future. Loves being in long relationships. Has lots of friends. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Also not a fighter, but if they have to, they will also knock the lights out of you if it comes down to it.Cool. Loves to own Geminis' in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.

heheh.. la lang share lang..

My General 6 Card Reading

2008-08-05T02:28:00.000+08:00

	how you feel about yourself now (The Magician) You feel a sense of purpose and the willpower to get things done. Self-empowerment is the key word here. Any new enterprises in love or career show great potential. You feel that you have the ability to think on your feet and, faced with opposition, the appearance of The Magician is an excellent omen of success. Time to believe in your self and go for it!
	what you most want at this moment (The Empress) The cards suggest chel, that at this time you desire comfort, security and happiness and may well need some emotional support and reassurance. (If you are considering having a baby the desire will be very strong at this time, or perhaps you are already pregnant and you have some concerns. If male, perhaps you are considering fatherhood with someone but have concerns.) Things will turn out fine, just know that you are loved and that there are people around you who care.
	your fears (The Sun) You are afraid that things seem too good to be true, so much pleasure and joy - well enjoy it, sometimes we can be pleasantly surprised. If you have been unwell this is a time of rejuvenation and good health. Perhaps you are afraid that things won’t actually get better - have faith you are about to enter a happy and pleasurable time. The Sun heralds an ending to difficulties and a time to celebrate with friends and loved ones, a time of pleasure and good news around children or the conception or birth of a longed-for baby.
	what is going for you (Wheel Of Fortune) Call it fate or destiny but the run of good luck or good fortune you are experiencing or about to experience is mostly not of your doing - enjoy this time. If there seem to be a number of positive coincidences happening in your life this is known as synchronicity, go with the flow and trust it.
	what is going against you (The World) As always, fear holds us back and so often leads to missed opportunities. Do not give up or change direction this late in the game just because you have experienced delays - stick with it, have faith and trust the universe, and you will reach the successful conclusion you are wanting.
	outcome (The Hierophant) Help is at hand. If you want wise counsel and moral guidance put your trust in someone you have a lot of respect for. Don’t allow others to influence you too much with what they want you to conform to, be true to yourself. When considering your options go with tried and tested traditional values, rather than the unconventional novel approach. For example marriage is more likely to be your desire than a living together situation.

Solitude vs. Loneliness --THE HERMIT

2008-08-04T21:35:00.000+08:00

Got this from Lotus Tarot [ http://lotustarot.com ] email...

Hi chel

What’s the difference between solitude and loneliness?

THIS WEEK'S CARD: THE HERMIT

For me, the difference is solitude is something you WANT
and feel comfortable with, a peaceful, relaxing and
inspirational space, and loneliness is an UNWANTED
experience of being on your own.

>> Okay..so maybe I'm lonely.

I believe one of the greatest fears we have is the fear of
loneliness, especially the loneliness that we feel when
we are without a lover.

>> Does it ring a bell? haha.. fear of lonelines..

This fear traps many of us into unfulfilling or
destructive relationships, or leads us into pursuing the
wrong person just to AVOID being on our own.

>> Am I self-destructing? I think I'm like this way, way, back... as in waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay back. I get into relationship as fast as lightning could strike, just afraid of being alone.

When The Hermit appears in your reading, it may represent
the loneliness you feel at the time. And remember, it is
possible to feel more isolated and lonely in an unhappy
relationship or marriage than when you are actually on your
own!

>> For the past 3 months that we separated, I felt a breath of fresh air! Whew! Never been better! But that's it. I'm alone... but I'm better in terms of mentally, physically and emotionally.

If this is the case, the card is suggesting you take time
out for inner reflection. In fact, The Hermit is also known
as the Contemplation card in some Tarot decks. Why do you
feel lonely? What can you do to help turn unwanted
loneliness into welcome solitude?

>> Naku, inner reflection..

Do you believe you can transform your loneliness into
solitude? I believe you can. Focus on contemplating
positive opportunities and outcomes. Spend your time
reflecting on past joys and accomplishments. Consider what
you can do with your life to create more satisfaction and
fulfillment.

The Hermit is saying ‘take your time and chill out, don’t
make any hasty or impetuous decisions, THINK about the
issues in your life carefully and from a more open-minded
perspective and with a more positive attitude’.

>> chillax lang.. ehehe.. think positive. the secret. ayos!

The card also suggests you should be patient, as it may
take a little more time before the period of unwanted
loneliness you are suffering will pass. Of course, it can
also mean don’t let the fear of loneliness hold you back
from making an important decision!

>> eto na, eto na.. decisions.. decisions.. DECISIONS!

When The Hermit appears in your readings, don’t rush any
decisions, take time out to think about and contemplate
your options carefully, and if you feel lonely consider how
you can change the way you view your ‘loneliness’ to create
a sense of solitude instead.

>> One of good friends had advised me to take things slow. Enjoy what I have for now. Huwag magmadali. Enjoy the moment. At least, we're talking now. Patience.....

Love and Joy,
Alison

You have Two Choices

2008-08-01T02:41:00.000+08:00

*** got this online. just something to think about...***

Jerry is the manager of a restaurant. He is always in a good mood. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would always reply: "If I were any better, I would be twins!"

Many of the waiters at his restaurant quit their jobs when he changed jobs, so they could follow him around from restaurant to restaurant

Why?

Because Jerry was a natural motivator.

If an employee was having a bad day, Jerry was always there, telling him how to look on the positive side of the situation. Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up to Jerry and asked him "I don't get it! No one can be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?"

Jerry replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, I have two choices today. I can choose to be in a good mood or I can choose to be in a bad mood. I always choose to be in a good mood. Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be victim or I can choose to learn from it. I always choose to learn from it. Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or I can point out the positive side of life. I always choose the positive side of life."

"But it's not always that easy," I protested.

"Yes it is," Jerry said.

"Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk every situation is a choice.
You choose how you react to situations.. You choose how people will affect your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. It's your choice how you live your life."

Several years later, I heard that Jerry accidentally did something you are never supposed to do in the restaurant business. He left the back door of his restaurant open And then in the morning, he was robbed by three armed men.

While Jerry trying to open the safe box, his hand, shaking from nervousness, slipped off the combination. The robbers panicked and shot him.

Luckily, Jerry was found quickly and rushed to the hospital. After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, Jerry was released from the hospital with fragments of the bullets still in his body.

I saw Jerry about six months after the accident. When I asked him how he was, he replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins. Want to see my scars?" I declined to see his wounds, but did ask him what had gone through his mind as the robbery took place.

"The first thing that went through my mind was that I should have locked the back door," Jerry replied.

"Then, after they shot me, as I lay on the floor, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or could choose to die. I chose to live."

"Weren't you scared" I asked?

Jerry continued, "The paramedics were great. They kept telling me I was going to be fine.

But when they wheeled me into the Emergency Room and I saw the expression on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared.

In their eyes, I read 'He's a dead man..

I knew I needed to take action." "What did you do?" I asked.

"Well, there was a big nurse shouting questions at me," said Jerry. "She asked if I was allergic to anything."

'Yes,' to bullets, I replied.

Over their laughter, I told them: "I am choosing to live. Please operate on me as if I am alive, not dead."

"Jerry lived thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude.

I learned from him that every day you have the choice to either enjoy your life or to hate it. The only thing that is truly yours - that no one can control or take from you is your attitude, so if you can take care of that, everything else in life becomes much easier.

untitled

2008-07-25T01:40:00.000+08:00

For the past couple of days,my heart and my mind are on a whirl. I really don't know what to think or feel now that I know the truth. I'm not angry when I finally heard from him what I've known all along. In fact, I totally understand what he's currently undergoing right now.

I was once in his shoes. Falling in love with someone else yet I still love and care for him. You could say that I was a two-timer in that phase of my life. Bad,isn't it? But well, I'd been there. Done that. But for sure, I wouldn't do it again. I learned a lot during that phase of my life.

He's in love..but with someone else. Painful as it may sound, but I still love him. I'm not a hypocrite to say that I'm not hurt. I AM. BUT! I'm not in my psychotic mode now..hahaha... that's what his friends refer to me..psychotic ex. I'm actually numb. I don't feel a thing. I don't know what to feel. I cry, yes. I still cry from time to time. But the feeling that I want him all to myself..well.. yes. I admit, I want him mine. Maybe not for now. Nah..that's not true. I want him mine but then again.. I dunno.

So many things have happened between us. We fought, separated but still I want him there.

I'm just a simple girl. I want us to be a family. A real family. One of my good friends told me to take things slow. He did say that too. It's actually good that we're talking again. I miss those talks. It's been a long time since we talked about anything and everything under the sun. It makes me smile that we're talking again. TAKE-THINGS-SLOW...My request? I want to see him often as I could not just with Celo as a family.. but just the two of us like we're dating again.

Yes, we're dating again. Maybe not exclusively but it's a start.

I love him so much and I understand what he's undergoing right now. Us being together may still be a dream but maybe we'll get there slowly but surely. He has a lot of issues to resolve on his own. He needs this for his own growth.

Meanwhile, I still have Marcelo to love and nurture. He's a product of us. I'm learning a lot too from my kid. Everyday, he learns a new word..like ba-shet-bol.. ah...basketball pala un..hehehe.. He tinkers with his piano telling me in his German language that there's no battery and he would like to get a screwdriver to open it up and put batteries.. He loves reading and me teaching him things. He's so happy when we're complete. You would see it in his eyes.

Sometimes it gets me thinking.. Is it right that I'm doing this?

Maybe it's the ideal. Maybe there's no right or wrong answer.

Day by day, I learn something new. Makes me smile that this is happening right now. I still have this wish etched on my mind.. I often tell Celo to be patient and everything would work out fine in the end. But well, it's up to him to decide the ending of this fairy tale.

Eraserheads

2008-07-20T11:19:00.001+08:00

got this from wikipedia...

2008 Reunion

It has been confirmed by the members that they will be reuniting, on August 30 2008, Ely said that the reunion will be for a night only.A famous tobacco company is said to be behind the up coming event. Sources say that the band members were paid P10,000,000.00 each for a 45 minute set. Buendia was quoted saying "Im not doing this for the money but for the E-heads fans who remain loyal". They are expecting 35,000 attendees and tickets will be distributed online for free early August 2008. This highly awaited one-night concert is reportedly to be held at CCP open grounds.

gusto ko manood nito!!!hahaha..

Eraserheads

2008-07-20T11:19:00.000+08:00

got this from wikipedia...

2008 Reunion

My Family

2008-07-20T10:50:00.000+08:00

Our family pic after a long, long time.

Me, Celo and Marts in Jollibee last July 13,2008. We were supposed to go to the zoo but it was postponed because of the rains. Anyway, we just went to Megamall for some strolling and eating. Where else would we eat but to Celo's ever favorite Krispy Kreme and Jollibee hangouts..hahaha..

Let's just say that after the storm, we've been talking and maybe, hopefully we could work things out to be a family again. These 2, especially the little one is the most important man in my life. I'd fight heaven and hell just for him. The big one, I loved a lot.. we may have lots of misunderstandings in the past but he'll always be and always is the man I've truly loved.

organizing and uploading photos

2008-06-28T15:29:00.000+08:00

waaaaah!!!

naduduling at nahihirapan ako magupload ng pics..tsk tsk.. pano naipon.. 300+ pictures.. naupload na sa flickr ko but kelangan ko pa i-organize. tsk tsk..

i guess i need to have 1 free whole day. baket ba nde ko to ginawa nung pto???

Yoga

2008-06-25T11:16:00.000+08:00

For the past couple of days, I've had yoga in my mind. hehe..

It all started when we went to Yellow Cab last Saturday. Thanks Jeh for the treat! and belated happy 10th to you and Ed!

Anyway, I saw this article regarding "Hot Yoga." It featured the Bikram Yoga Manila. After reading it, it made me want to do it. I've been wanting to try it out ages ago way back in college. Neither had the funds, the time nor the will to do it.. hahaha...

Well, I believe now is the time in my life to explore the possibilities of learning Yoga. I'm still on the "research" stage. Trying to look for a center that would fit my budget, time and of course, location is accessible.

Here's a list of the yoga centers I found on the net.

1. Ananda Marga Yoga Center - located in Sikatuna Village, Q.C.
Price for the 8-week course is 1800pesos which includes a book and a cd. 250pesos for drop-ins. Not bad.

2. Bikram Yoga Manila - located in Salcedo Village, Makati
This is the center I read from the mag. They have an introductory package which costs 1k for 3 sessions that you must take within a week. If you decide after experiencing the introductory package that you want more, just add 4k and be able to avail of their unlimited package for a month. Quite expensive if you shell out the 5k instantly but if you compute it, it's cheaper. But then again, can I do that do yoga for 30 days straight? hehehe..

3. Yoga Manila - has 3 locations: Ortigas, Makati and Alabang.
400pesos per class. 2200pesos for 6 classes can be taken over a 90-day period in any 3 locations. Not bad.

4. Pulse Yoga - located in Greenhills.
500pesos for walk-ins. One week unlimited pass for 1200pesos or 4k monthly. This by far is the nearest to me but still seems expensive. Sorry, I'm a cheapskate.. hahaha...

5. Vinyasa Yoga Center - located in Ortigas.
400pesos for a trial session. 4200 for 12 sessions. Not bad too. This is near my office so the place is really accessible.

So why all this yoga stuff in mind? Well, I just really need to do something. Something constructive, take my mind off my problems and in the process be stress-free and lose weight too. hehehe..

So who wants to join me on yoga bandwagon?

New Cam

2008-06-16T17:47:00.000+08:00

Yup, this is my new toy! Fujifilm FinePix S700. Para siyang mini dslr. Parang one step ahead sa digicam pero low tech na digicam.. hahaha... Okay siya kase may manual functions eh.. daming functions! May auto (shempre), natural, natural/flash, moving, video, at kung ano ano pa. 7.1MegaPixels siya kaya ok din. Hindi mo nga lang napapalitan lens. Pero asteg pa rin! Oonaman, padala ni daddy dearest at mommy dearest eh!

Mejo long overdue na nga na magkaroon ako ng digicam eh. Dapat last year pa, nagkaroon ng restraining order kase, tapos nanenok na. Kaya hayun! Yun sunod na pinadala eh divicam, okay sana kasoooo... nde ko matatransfer dito kay Lappie d' macbook eh. Kase ung cd niya ung super liit.. eh slot loading to... Anyways, this new cam of mine uses an xs picture card parang 3/4 ng mmc ung size eh. Pwede daw transfer through usb or using card reader.. si kuya kuripot wag na daw gamitin ung usb, aksaya sa baterya.. kaya ung card reader na lang daw niya. siguro one of these days gagawin ko pag may pagkakataon. Tamad mode ako e. Naudlot yung linis mode ko. Sayang.. titirahin ko sana ung ref.. sarap linisin eh!

Anyway, this pic was taken on my laptop.. last week pa ata.. hahaha.. walang pagkakataon na mapost at iedit kase.. hahaha...

Anyway, sabi ko nga pupunta na ako ng bangko, kelangan ko ng allowance.. tsk tsk... nagbayad kase ako sa laundry ng sandamakmak kong damit.

Sana approve yung leave ko next week para bakasyon galore.. (kase wala ng pera) hahaha.. maglilinis kase ako dito.. un un!

this is the online pic of my cam.. hehehe...

bagong blog

2008-06-16T17:18:00.001+08:00

just created a new blog.. walang magawa! kelangan na ngang matulog, gising pa rin! actually, kelangan ko pumunta ng bangko dahil wala na ako pera pampasok mamaya.. tsk tsk.. kakasweldo lang, wala na naman akong pera.. maniningil na ako.. hahahah...

sana may magbayad! un lng..

meron naman.. tipid mode ever.

bad trip kulang pambili ko ng kama :( huhu..kelan kaya si mama magpapadala? ayaw kong umasa sa ganon kaso kelangan... nagsabi naman siya eh.

dumaan ung in-law kong hilaw. ok naman. ayaw ko ng magsalita. alam ko naman ang gusto nila eh. wala naman sa akin yun. may mga bagay-bagay lang talagang kelangan maayos. kelangan ayusin ng anak nila.

kung ako may pagkakamali, inaamin ko yun. pero nde habambuhay ko un pagdudusahan. gusto kong maging masaya! ngayon kung ayaw mo, di wag.. walang pilitan. basta ako kasama ko anak ko at masaya kame.

un lng nga.. miss kita.. hahaha...

pero ok lng un. lilipas din naman ang pagkamiss ko sau. kung ako nga nde mo namimiss. ung anak mo nga, tinitiis mo.. eh di so be it.

okay lang, that's life.. osha kelangan magbangko.. san kaya ako pupulot ng pera... bili naman kayo sakin..hahhaha...