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For the past couple of days,my heart and my mind are on a whirl. I really don't know what to think or feel now that I know the truth. I'm not angry when I finally heard from him what I've known all along. In fact, I totally understand what he's currently undergoing right now.

I was once in his shoes. Falling in love with someone else yet I still love and care for him. You could say that I was a two-timer in that phase of my life. Bad,isn't it? But well, I'd been there. Done that. But for sure, I wouldn't do it again. I learned a lot during that phase of my life.

He's in love..but with someone else. Painful as it may sound, but I still love him. I'm not a hypocrite to say that I'm not hurt. I AM. BUT! I'm not in my psychotic mode now..hahaha... that's what his friends refer to me..psychotic ex. I'm actually numb. I don't feel a thing. I don't know what to feel. I cry, yes. I still cry from time to time. But the feeling that I want him all to myself..well.. yes. I admit, I want him mine. Maybe not for now. Nah..that's not true. I want him mine but then again.. I dunno.

So many things have happened between us. We fought, separated but still I want him there.

I'm just a simple girl. I want us to be a family. A real family. One of my good friends told me to take things slow. He did say that too. It's actually good that we're talking again. I miss those talks. It's been a long time since we talked about anything and everything under the sun. It makes me smile that we're talking again. TAKE-THINGS-SLOW...My request? I want to see him often as I could not just with Celo as a family.. but just the two of us like we're dating again.

Yes, we're dating again. Maybe not exclusively but it's a start.

I love him so much and I understand what he's undergoing right now. Us being together may still be a dream but maybe we'll get there slowly but surely. He has a lot of issues to resolve on his own. He needs this for his own growth.

Meanwhile, I still have Marcelo to love and nurture. He's a product of us. I'm learning a lot too from my kid. Everyday, he learns a new word..like ba-shet-bol.. ah...basketball pala un..hehehe.. He tinkers with his piano telling me in his German language that there's no battery and he would like to get a screwdriver to open it up and put batteries.. He loves reading and me teaching him things. He's so happy when we're complete. You would see it in his eyes.

Sometimes it gets me thinking.. Is it right that I'm doing this?

Maybe it's the ideal. Maybe there's no right or wrong answer.

Day by day, I learn something new. Makes me smile that this is happening right now. I still have this wish etched on my mind.. I often tell Celo to be patient and everything would work out fine in the end. But well, it's up to him to decide the ending of this fairy tale.

Eraserheads

got this from wikipedia...

2008 Reunion

It has been confirmed by the members that they will be reuniting, on August 30 2008, Ely said that the reunion will be for a night only.A famous tobacco company is said to be behind the up coming event. Sources say that the band members were paid P10,000,000.00 each for a 45 minute set. Buendia was quoted saying "Im not doing this for the money but for the E-heads fans who remain loyal". They are expecting 35,000 attendees and tickets will be distributed online for free early August 2008. This highly awaited one-night concert is reportedly to be held at CCP open grounds.

gusto ko manood nito!!!hahaha..

Eraserheads

got this from wikipedia...

2008 Reunion

It has been confirmed by the members that they will be reuniting, on August 30 2008, Ely said that the reunion will be for a night only.A famous tobacco company is said to be behind the up coming event. Sources say that the band members were paid P10,000,000.00 each for a 45 minute set. Buendia was quoted saying "Im not doing this for the money but for the E-heads fans who remain loyal". They are expecting 35,000 attendees and tickets will be distributed online for free early August 2008. This highly awaited one-night concert is reportedly to be held at CCP open grounds.

My Family

Our family pic after a long, long time.

Me, Celo and Marts in Jollibee last July 13,2008. We were supposed to go to the zoo but it was postponed because of the rains. Anyway, we just went to Megamall for some strolling and eating. Where else would we eat but to Celo's ever favorite Krispy Kreme and Jollibee hangouts..hahaha..

Let's just say that after the storm, we've been talking and maybe, hopefully we could work things out to be a family again. These 2, especially the little one is the most important man in my life. I'd fight heaven and hell just for him. The big one, I loved a lot.. we may have lots of misunderstandings in the past but he'll always be and always is the man I've truly loved.

organizing and uploading photos

waaaaah!!!

naduduling at nahihirapan ako magupload ng pics..tsk tsk.. pano naipon.. 300+ pictures.. naupload na sa flickr ko but kelangan ko pa i-organize. tsk tsk..

i guess i need to have 1 free whole day. baket ba nde ko to ginawa nung pto???

Yoga

For the past couple of days, I've had yoga in my mind. hehe..

It all started when we went to Yellow Cab last Saturday. Thanks Jeh for the treat! and belated happy 10th to you and Ed!

Anyway, I saw this article regarding "Hot Yoga." It featured the Bikram Yoga Manila. After reading it, it made me want to do it. I've been wanting to try it out ages ago way back in college. Neither had the funds, the time nor the will to do it.. hahaha...

Well, I believe now is the time in my life to explore the possibilities of learning Yoga. I'm still on the "research" stage. Trying to look for a center that would fit my budget, time and of course, location is accessible.

Here's a list of the yoga centers I found on the net.

1. Ananda Marga Yoga Center - located in Sikatuna Village, Q.C.
Price for the 8-week course is 1800pesos which includes a book and a cd. 250pesos for drop-ins. Not bad.

2. Bikram Yoga Manila - located in Salcedo Village, Makati
This is the center I read from the mag. They have an introductory package which costs 1k for 3 sessions that you must take within a week. If you decide after experiencing the introductory package that you want more, just add 4k and be able to avail of their unlimited package for a month. Quite expensive if you shell out the 5k instantly but if you compute it, it's cheaper. But then again, can I do that do yoga for 30 days straight? hehehe..

3. Yoga Manila - has 3 locations: Ortigas, Makati and Alabang.
400pesos per class. 2200pesos for 6 classes can be taken over a 90-day period in any 3 locations. Not bad.

4. Pulse Yoga - located in Greenhills.
500pesos for walk-ins. One week unlimited pass for 1200pesos or 4k monthly. This by far is the nearest to me but still seems expensive. Sorry, I'm a cheapskate.. hahaha...

5. Vinyasa Yoga Center - located in Ortigas.
400pesos for a trial session. 4200 for 12 sessions. Not bad too. This is near my office so the place is really accessible.

So why all this yoga stuff in mind? Well, I just really need to do something. Something constructive, take my mind off my problems and in the process be stress-free and lose weight too. hehehe..

So who wants to join me on yoga bandwagon?

New Cam

Yup, this is my new toy! Fujifilm FinePix S700. Para siyang mini dslr. Parang one step ahead sa digicam pero low tech na digicam.. hahaha... Okay siya kase may manual functions eh.. daming functions! May auto (shempre), natural, natural/flash, moving, video, at kung ano ano pa. 7.1MegaPixels siya kaya ok din. Hindi mo nga lang napapalitan lens. Pero asteg pa rin! Oonaman, padala ni daddy dearest at mommy dearest eh!

Mejo long overdue na nga na magkaroon ako ng digicam eh. Dapat last year pa, nagkaroon ng restraining order kase, tapos nanenok na. Kaya hayun! Yun sunod na pinadala eh divicam, okay sana kasoooo... nde ko matatransfer dito kay Lappie d' macbook eh. Kase ung cd niya ung super liit.. eh slot loading to... Anyways, this new cam of mine uses an xs picture card parang 3/4 ng mmc ung size eh. Pwede daw transfer through usb or using card reader.. si kuya kuripot wag na daw gamitin ung usb, aksaya sa baterya.. kaya ung card reader na lang daw niya. siguro one of these days gagawin ko pag may pagkakataon. Tamad mode ako e. Naudlot yung linis mode ko. Sayang.. titirahin ko sana ung ref.. sarap linisin eh!

Anyway, this pic was taken on my laptop.. last week pa ata.. hahaha.. walang pagkakataon na mapost at iedit kase.. hahaha...

Anyway, sabi ko nga pupunta na ako ng bangko, kelangan ko ng allowance.. tsk tsk... nagbayad kase ako sa laundry ng sandamakmak kong damit.

Sana approve yung leave ko next week para bakasyon galore.. (kase wala ng pera) hahaha.. maglilinis kase ako dito.. un un!

this is the online pic of my cam.. hehehe...

bagong blog

just created a new blog.. walang magawa! kelangan na ngang matulog, gising pa rin! actually, kelangan ko pumunta ng bangko dahil wala na ako pera pampasok mamaya.. tsk tsk.. kakasweldo lang, wala na naman akong pera.. maniningil na ako.. hahahah...

sana may magbayad! un lng..

meron naman.. tipid mode ever.

bad trip kulang pambili ko ng kama :( huhu..kelan kaya si mama magpapadala? ayaw kong umasa sa ganon kaso kelangan... nagsabi naman siya eh.

dumaan ung in-law kong hilaw. ok naman. ayaw ko ng magsalita. alam ko naman ang gusto nila eh. wala naman sa akin yun. may mga bagay-bagay lang talagang kelangan maayos. kelangan ayusin ng anak nila.

kung ako may pagkakamali, inaamin ko yun. pero nde habambuhay ko un pagdudusahan. gusto kong maging masaya! ngayon kung ayaw mo, di wag.. walang pilitan. basta ako kasama ko anak ko at masaya kame.

un lng nga.. miss kita.. hahaha...

pero ok lng un. lilipas din naman ang pagkamiss ko sau. kung ako nga nde mo namimiss. ung anak mo nga, tinitiis mo.. eh di so be it.

okay lang, that's life.. osha kelangan magbangko.. san kaya ako pupulot ng pera... bili naman kayo sakin..hahhaha...